ghaw2007

Together We're Heavy

Verse 1
The disconnection between you and I
Has lasted for a while now
Sometimes I can't help but sigh
We went from being strangers to developing a friendship
And when we wanted to be more than that
We became lovers
To me, our time together seemed surreal
I couldn't believe what I felt
A genuine feeling of love for you
That I never thought I was capable of having

Verse 2
When we disagree, you yell at me
And I turn away from you
It's just nothing new
Conflict arises out of almost everything you and I do
You're acting like a stranger to me
I don't know who you have become
You think I claim to be perfect
Each time I point out your mistakes
I have never said that I'm better than you
If that's the impression you've gotten
You have misunderstood me

Verse 3
We weren't built to be fortresses
We have emotions and it's no good to hide them
If we just keep to ourselves
Then we're nothing more than robots
I foolishly believed you held the key to my happiness
Because you were enamoured, you opened your heart to me
All you saw was who you thought we could be

Chorus
Together we're heavy
I can't lift you up anymore
I'm not as strong as I was before
You have brought me down
Together we're heavy
You can no longer carry me
You've told me that you're sorry
I have pulled you apart

Written by B. (Monday, January 24, 2005)
Copyright 2005

ghaw2007

Just Hold On

Verse 1
We used to be together as one
But we’re breaking into two
We used to be together as equal
But things are becoming unfair
I will hold on to all the feelings
The ones that always tell me so
I will hold on to this moment
I’ll only let go when I know it’s the end

Verse 2
I promised to be right beside you
And to be there for good and bad times
I’m not going to break my word
Just because you want me to
Oh no, I’ll never do that

Verse 3
Hold on to what you mean to me
And to what I mean to you
Hold on to priceless memories
Don’t let them fade away
Keep them near your heart

Chorus
I know you are becoming weaker
And you’ve convinced yourself that you can’t go on
I believe that we can last longer
Use your strength and just hold on to us

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

Ray of Light

Verse 1
She is a ray of light moving quickly
Soaring through the sky like a gazelle with wings
There’s no way anybody can catch up with her
She never stays in one place longer than a minute

Verse 2
She’s faster than anything you’ve seen before
You’re trying to figure out where she comes from
I don’t think you’ll ever know for sure
Time passes by like a stranger in the night

Verse 3
There’s a universe out there for her to explore
She could be searching for her place in it
Maybe she’s trying to leave this world behind
If she is, she’ll zoom out
Like a hot potato in your hands

Bridge
Her speed amazes everyone
When you see her, she’s already gone
She’s always racing to her destinations

Chorus 1
Can you feel a gust of wind pass you by?
Can you see a light that is shining brightly?
If you can, you know it’s her

Chorus 2
Can you feel her?
Can you feel?
Can you see her shining like a star?
Can you see?
She’s flying like a ray of light
She is a ray of light

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

Ask Me No Questions

Ask me no questions for I know nothing
If it’s something about anything
I won’t know what you’re saying
Of course I hear you speak
But I can’t comprehend your message
Even if you break it down
All I hear are sounds
Sounds that are endless
Sounds that are boundless
Sounds which only cloud my mind
You’re searching for answers that I don’t have
I’m avoiding questions that you ask
I keep on telling you that I can’t help you
But you’re persistent like a cop
Trying to get the truth out of a criminal
If there was something I could do
I would have done it
I wouldn’t even hesitate for a moment
You do believe me when I say that, don’t you?
If you don’t, then you don’t
I won’t try to convince you that I‘m an honest person
You can think whatever you want to think
But you can’t do whatever you want to do
It’s not a free country
Nothing is free, so I’ve been told
You ask me: "Should I leave or should I stay?"
I’m thinking: "Didn’t you ask me that yesterday?"
I’ve wasted a lot of time on you
I’ve tried to explain that there’s nothing I can do
I’m not a psychic that can predict your future
I’m not a genie that can grant you three wishes
So ask me no questions for I know nothing

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

By The Time I Get To Phoenix

Verse 1
Where’s luck when I need it the most?
Where’s a genie to grant me three wishes?
Where’s a rainbow with a pot of gold?
Where’s a rabbit’s foot that I can hold?
I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes
And I’ve been away from you for awhile
I begged you to give me a chance
But you went your own way

Verse 2
I’ve made promises I’ve never kept
I caused you to be disappointed in me
I feel so ashamed of myself
Why did I act that way to you?
Forget about turning back time
Nothing good happened in the past
I don’t even look onwards to the future
My state of mind is frozen in the present

Bridge 1
By the time I get to Phoenix
I’ll have tears falling from my eyes
My heart will sink to my feet

Bridge 2
Even if I were a bird
I wouldn’t be able to fly away from my problems
They’re with me wherever I go
They won’t disappear
But I can forget about them for awhile

Chorus
By the time I get to Phoenix
I’ll have tears falling from my eyes
My heart will sink to my feet
I’ll be drowning in a sea of regret

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

Needing You

Verse 1
You are far away from me
Please come a little closer to me
I am longing to touch your skin
I want to be healed from the sadness I feel
Since you’ve been gone, everything has changed
It’s as if I’m living in a completely different world
I look around and I don’t recognize anything
It’s just like a never-ending nightmare

Verse 2
I am far away from you
Please come a little closer to me
I look around and I don’t recognize anything
It’s just like a never-ending nightmare

Verse 3
Why can’t I be by your side?
That’s the question I always ask myself
If you’re not going to be in my life
I don’t know if I could ever survive
You’ve always been the blood rushing through my veins
Now that you’re gone, I feel like I’m dying
You’ll always be the one for me
No one will ever take your place in my heart

Chorus
I’m needing you
I don’t want to live without you
I’m needing you

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

River, Cross My Heart

Verse 1
I’m sick and tired of feeling that I need to care about everything
I know many people that do whatever they please
I don’t want to feel angry
I don’t want to feel sad
I don’t need an ounce of feeling that lives inside me

Verse 2
I’ve been called names
And sometimes I shrug all of them off
But some of them are like weapons
They wound me each time they’re said

Bridge
If I were a turtle
I’d crawl under my shell and remain there
Even if it was for a lifetime
I don’t want to feel angry
I don’t want to feel sad
I don’t need an ounce of feeling that lives inside me

Chorus
River, please cross my heart
Flood every corner of it
Don’t leave any spaces that can succumb to the power of feeling
I need help, so help me now
Depression is more present than its ever been in my life
I don’t want to show any emotions

Written by B. (2001)
Copyright 2001

ghaw2007

I Need You Now

Verse 1
I have looked for you
But you are nowhere to be found
Why did you leave me here alone?
If you hear me, come back home
Where I am is where you belong
I miss your smile and your laugh
The kindness and generosity
That revealed the beauty of your heart
Memories are all I have of you
I will not forget any of them

Verse 2
Life without you is difficult
There are many problems I can’t solve
Many issues I don’t want to address
In those moments, I long for you the most
I need to be with any part of you
Even your spirit

Chorus 1
It would be great to be so strong
I could get through the lonely days and sleepless nights
Denying my feelings is not only painful, it’s wrong
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring
It makes me feel uneasy
I’ll never get over you, I don’t know how
You’re the only one who can make me live again
I need you now

Chorus 2
It would be great to be so strong
I could get through the lonely days and sleepless nights
Denying my feelings is not only painful, it’s wrong
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring
It makes me feel uneasy
I’ll never get over you, I don’t know how
You’re the only one who can make me live again
I need you now
Make me feel alive again
I need you now

Written by B. (2003)
Copyright 2003

ghaw2007

The Deeper Wound

Verse 1
The truth is buried underneath
You’re stepping on it
So get off and dig it out
You will find what you have been looking for
And when you do, you will appreciate it
It has been with you all this time
There is no denying its existence
You must feel lucky to have it
Does that mean you will embrace it?
I have nothing
I have no one to call my own
I feel jealousy towards you

Verse 2
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I don’t
Other times I feel like winning
But I won’t
They will tear me down
They will wear me down
I’ll be standing on my own
You have everything
You have someone to call your own
I feel anger towards you

Bridge
Having your heart broken is sad
Being pierced by an object is bad
But realizing that you have nothing is the deeper wound

Chorus
I can see you
You’re everywhere, but where am I?
I have searched but I come empty-handed

Written by B. (2003)
Copyright 2003

ghaw2007

Come In And Burn

Verse 1
Come in and burn
Peel every inch of skin off your body
The protection you assumed you had
Is really eating away at you
Right down to your core
Political correctness keeps feeding you poison
You eat more than you can chew
What you read and hear doesn’t have any meaning
But how would you know if it does?
Your mind is quarantined from everything around you
But you fear isolation

Verse 2
The stigma associated with your condition
Causes you to be afraid
You worry about your way of thinking
But you can’t concentrate anymore
Your body is turning itself against you
No doctor is going to help you
The kind of help you need is only ignited by fire
Throw yourself into the flames
Burn anything bad, burn anything sad
Turn it all into ashes

Bridge
If you’re tired of manipulation, interrogation and intimidation
Change the situation by going out of your mind
There’s nothing wrong in doing so

Chorus
Come in and burn
Peel every inch of skin off your body
Rip put your hairs and close your eyes
Unburden yourself of sanity

Written by B. (2002)
Copyright 2002