Dirty

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I've been writing lyrics and recording my rhymes for about a year now. 90% of the time I use original beats, made by my friends and sometimes I use an instrumental. I try to be really diverse with the things I write, cover different topics, sometimes poetic and sometimes just blatant and straight forward. But I've found writing to be really therapeutic in dealing with my feelings and thoughts.

So I'll be posting some of my stuff in here... I think it's pretty obvious I didn't sign up to just promote my music, I came here after the music forum I was posting on basically became a ghost town and I have been contributing and plan to keep doing so. If a mod disagrees and thinks I signed up to spam, then so be it. I guess just remove any videos and whenever it's deemed I have been here long enough, I'll just post them again.

So with that, here's a song I wrote called 'Hollow.' Basically I had a 2.5 year relationship with a girl and it was really messy at a lot of different points. After we were broken up for awhile, she visited town for a mutual friends birthday and seeing her really brought a lot of different feelings to the surface. So the next few nights I wrote about it and made a song out of it. All three verses are different in that the theme of each verse kinda represents different stages of a breakup

Verse 1

When it ends, yes I still pretend we're meant to be
connecting dots, making plots of where my life should be
life is crazy, but maybe there's somethin better in this world for me to find
Is she the only one that really shines?
Probably not,
but my throat's stuck in knots,
cause she shines just like a ruby
the beauty in my broken movie
Wish that we could start fresh, but is it possible?
Forget about the past and the rest, lose the obstacles?
and everything that's trivial, we could live invisible and live in bliss
cause with this chick I felt invincible
Really feel me, how ya lose 2 years?
Try to pick up all the pieces, remain calm, and think clear?
I can't control it so I drink 10 beers
and send her up some drunk texts that were detailing my fears
of how I'd never be completed
and everything that's leading to the end was leaving
that chick was everything I ever needed


Chorus

I feel hollow
the emptiness is killing me so follow
me and all my feelings to this empty bottle
(X2)

Verse 2

Can we start again?
Our hearts will mend, I promise
and through the fog there is a calm beyond this
Can't we just be honest with ourselves?
Or are we jaundiced?
Strangers when we meet up in the streets
is this the way you really wanted it to be?
Can't we fight through the debris?
Or has it washed away?
It's black and white and I'm lost in grey
Can I fix it?
If not, I'm getting lifted cause it's too much to take
We break what we create most
Raise a toast in the glass with much ice
and I'm the jealous type
Maybe my fellas right,
it sounds trite
But as the calendar turns
I'm still burned, and bitter, broken, bruised
Standin guilty as the man accused
I'm confused at how it hurts so much
to watch your lust turn to love and then love reverts back to dust.

*CHORUS*

Verse 3

Was the lemon worth the squeeze?
Check the trees, cause I need some mary, scary how I freeze if I been drinkin
Thinkin, how do lovers make amends?
Can they still be friends without the benefits
and blend with all the rest of it?
Or is she caught in some pretentious ****?
and is she really gonna snub me in public?
Is she pretending it?
I never know, I put an end to my doubt
Grabbing pictures off my wall, now her face is blacked out
It's like the first days, they fade quicker
I only call her if I'm with her or I'm drinkin liquor
Walking lines of love and hate but never walk it straight
Because in time a perfect picture always seems to break
I watched it fade...