Sansa Stark

I dunno haha, Hermione Stark hasn't been around long enough to be better than Hermione Granger

Sansa Stark

everyone is asking me it seems
lately it's always "why do you miss him"
did i hand you my own knife
because you're carving deep into me
i'll tell you now there is no relief from this
i would have found it with my own hands
cruelly twisting and contorting my soul into
seven pieces or maybe six but what's a soul when
i lost my heart to you in sincerity i'm laughing but
it's just the madness curdling me and mine into fear
i'm holding my head up as it won't stop bleeding out
in the world there goes my heart speeding away from me,
farther and farther it goes into the ground
to grow out its roots deeper and deeper i am falling
and purging out the monster that holds on to my name
and claims it for their own hard earned smiles
wander onto my teeth tentatively screaming
my set of shark teeth wait their calling to start sharpening
but i feel myself on those nimble feet falling away
from something that won't leave me i'm asking for its wisdom
it's just feeding me wine made of my own blood,
these letters written from a typewriter once built from lust,
can you tell me, can you tell me, will they ever ever be enough?

CrazyVegn

I can relate to this feeling of missing someone disguised as madness.

You told me recently he got married. Even though he was abusive it can still hurt...

Sansa Stark

Oh it's definitely not about him, I don't miss the one that got married :/

CrazyVegn

The Aries?

Sansa Stark

Yep

Sansa Stark

sigh


but i have to say that this passion isn't in it's infancy
a patient fire, drawing itself up to face infinities
promised by other tossed and torn torches
i'm laughing bleeding from the ears, i see you
taking toll on the mossy stones, with bleeding feet
mine are calloused and black with despair i feel it in my knees
i come to you tomorrow to promise you the magic words
the ones that fall from your teeth, just say please
leave the cleaver at home, i'll take my hands from behind my back
you could leave me amputated and aching, i'm not lying for once
in my life, i'd stay faithful holding my tourniquets with my ankles
they ask me if it's trying, i say to you it's my life and my pain
the pattern of the ache is not quite the same, it's nothing i know
these pages were filled with other names but their songs are yours
as if i'd known all along that my voice only can see the sun that shines on you
i'm laughing and holding the mirror in front of your face
never mind the glass, it's plastic but it's reality at least for me
it grows, it grows it grows it's my pestilence and it's about to burst
it's a shame this fanciful fool, veiled in fidelity blinds you
but this pain, this ache, I favour it, I savour it as it shows
I'll carry it as my sword against Cerberus and home is where I'll carry you
my heart is where I'll carry you, past the black gates that already know my name
and my rage is the fire, my faith is the flame made to break an iron will
nevermind an iron won't, i don't hear my ears listening to it
my heart, can you swim? it matters not, never mind this black river we've come to
my shoulders will built to carry us, no matter that they're half broken.
So am I.

Sansa Stark

do you still tell yourself
when you're drinking
that this isn't you,
what you had in mind
do you still tell yourself
you don't mimic my speech
who do you think gave you those words
that spell out your cleaned out soul?
i don't care, you keep yourself blind
go ahead and tell yourself
i wasn't what you had in mind
to myself, i once told
those same old boring lies
you can't keep my attention
don't you dare deny it
i trade in something rawer
something more flawed and painful
than your flimsy house of lies
tell yourself it's not a treason
tell yourself the name you dream of
wasn't always mine.
No matter how the letters line up
it goes back to me it follows me
around the bend it's at my heels
I won't bow down to it, but
i know exactly how it feels.

Sansa Stark

i am not sorry my hands were faster
to grab hold of the blades you showed
wolves tear at your throat drawn to my voice
a howl louder than your sounds made mewling
i am not sorry my heart was full up when you
came to what you thought was your home
i'm not sorry, i'll keep stabbing
my pound of flesh has turned into a tonne
I'll squeeze every last drop from your lips
you liar, you liar you lied and expected me to
lie down for you? you speak a name you
thought belonged to you, but that was before
before becoming a person i was a monster
yes that monster was yours but who pulled the strings?


is it enough now, all that i've purged has it been enough
to ensure you'll know who i gave myself to
how many words will i have to string together
while i'm still strong enough to do so
will convince you? I'll do it i swear i'll build
a bridge out of my own bones and skin
tied together with my nerves pulled out
because i tell you i don't know how much longer
i can stay strong i'm already in pieces
but those shards are still yours to keep.

Sansa Stark

i wear my heart on my sleeve
while i'm wearing your veins in my teeth
don't think of fear
for what's beneath the trees
it seems to stutter its branches towards you
and unto me there's a world that needs her
and here i stand ready to give her back to the earth
and you cannot stop me
my heart is heavy and
my soul was culled from the bottom of well
and here i'm stumbling over words and feelings
and i watched you as you fell
i feel the nails they're digging into me
and this was not how it was supposed to be
but it's how i wanted it and who can tell me if i have lost my way
or drawn myself a map in the wrong direction
can i borrow the sounds from someone else's foot falls
just so i can forestall what happens
when feelings inside me take root and bloom
i'll weed them out oh i've tried
but from here who knows, for once
i don't want the fight to be mine