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i feel like i've been used too many times.
supposing that was your plan all along.
i dont understand why you hate me so much.
i never did anything to you.
i never hurt you.
so why is hatred the main emotion for you.

i always cry when you're here.
because i know if i say one thing
ill get yelled at even though its something of none of your concern.

you make it so hard for me to smile.
even when the best things in life are following me.
why must you make me suffer so much.

its just for your entertainment that i hate myself.
im not going to keep feeling that way.
but right now you're making it hard.

you just dont want to see me happy.
only because among you face.
i can see that you were never happy.
you're trying to make a dark past out of me.
to hide the past that you were withered into.

its not my fault.
so dont carry it on me.

basically just two words i'd like to say.

****.
you.

i feel like it feels when a cold hand is put onto a warm body.
my blood turns blue and my veins go red.
i feel like its something that brings joy.
but its something i dont want to have happen to me.

i only have this feeling because of you.
and the depression and angst that you laid upon me,
has made my future a living hell.
and i dont care what you say.
but apparently my feelings tend to take action toward your words.

i have just a simple question.
why are you the way you are?
why cant you just be accepting and care what i feel like.
you just lay all that anger onto me like im a piece of paper sucking up water.
you think it doesn't do anything to me.
it does.

this life is one i wish to just start over.
not the friends i've recieved,
but the feelings i've had to be put through.
i wish i could just delete that out of my mind.
and make my way out of this dark place i've been put into.

i only wish...

Trauma

Too cliche for me.

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A mi no me importa nada
Para mi la vida es un sueño