how is it that you think you've stopped

~~under~~ · 12-20-2007, 02:56 PM

You've fallen with angst

i look up into the ceiling and sky.
and i see you.
why must i look at you in my most horrific state.
it seems that the only times i am down.
you take advantage and make me feel worse.

you dont understand what i go through.
but you more likely understand what im put through.
as though you are the one putting me through it.

once i've reached the state where im completely invulnmerable.
you attack and you don't stop until i end it myself.
which of course leads to me destroying myself.
but im not letting that happen to me.

no matter what you do
you wont lead me to that.
ill have to live with you and be put through the madness.
but i will never lead myself to something i could never climb back out of...

12-20-2007, 02:56 PM	#1 (permalink)
~~under~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 1,056	how is it that you think you've stopped You've fallen with angst i look up into the ceiling and sky. and i see you. why must i look at you in my most horrific state. it seems that the only times i am down. you take advantage and make me feel worse. you dont understand what i go through. but you more likely understand what im put through. as though you are the one putting me through it. once i've reached the state where im completely invulnmerable. you attack and you don't stop until i end it myself. which of course leads to me destroying myself. but im not letting that happen to me. no matter what you do you wont lead me to that. ill have to live with you and be put through the madness. but i will never lead myself to something i could never climb back out of...