A Journey Through The Mind of a Loner: A Kiiii Story

Ol’ Qwerty Bastard · 12-10-2016, 09:43 AM

that's actually a pretty amazing story

Key · 12-10-2016, 10:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Qwertyy

that's actually a pretty amazing story

Yeah. Interesting read in my journal for sure.

Key · 12-10-2016, 10:52 AM

I really only want to bring this up in here because it's my journal and I can do whatever the **** I want in here. I honestly would not have come to realize this had I not logged into Facebook this morning, but on this day a year ago was the day I separated myself from the girl I thought I was meant for. At this point in time, we had both come to a mutual agreement and decided it was best for us to go our separate ways (little did I know she would end up with the guy she had been cheating on me with the next day). I really don't know what to feel because I really haven't been through this type of thing before, so today could literally be really good, or it can be really bad.

All I really want to try to do is keep my mind on things that make me happy, and attempt to not reflect on the past. Let's face it, this is a ****ty thing to be reminded of and when I saw it, the whole ordeal I had been through up until this point today felt rather fresh. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it makes sense in my head, so whatever.

I really also don't know if these types of things should be remembered as I honestly didn't remember the day until Facebook decided to push it onto me (Thanks Facebook). You don't have to be nice to me today. I don't expect sympathy. In fact, I really don't want sympathy because than I'm allowing the situation to reopen and that's not really something worth doing. I really don't know how today is going to go, but I should see this as a door opening to allow me to push forward.

Tristan_Geoff · 12-10-2016, 11:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Mordor

Ohio, actually. She's not British. American who grew up in Europe, starting in the UK. Went back to USA for uni. We met. Fate.

Aw

The Batlord · 12-10-2016, 11:18 AM

You should go on Facebook and say with complete seriousness that you are now in a loving relationship with a cactus, and then post a pic of this guy shoving a cactus up his ass that I saw on 4Chan.

Tristan_Geoff · 12-10-2016, 11:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Ki

I really only want to bring this up in here because it's my journal and I can do whatever the **** I want in here. I honestly would not have come to realize this had I not logged into Facebook this morning, but on this day a year ago was the day I separated myself from the girl I thought I was meant for. At this point in time, we had both come to a mutual agreement and decided it was best for us to go our separate ways (little did I know she would end up with the guy she had been cheating on me with the next day). I really don't know what to feel because I really haven't been through this type of thing before, so today could literally be really good, or it can be really bad.

All I really want to try to do is keep my mind on things that make me happy, and attempt to not reflect on the past. Let's face it, this is a ****ty thing to be reminded of and when I saw it, the whole ordeal I had been through up until this point today felt rather fresh. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it makes sense in my head, so whatever.

I really also don't know if these types of things should be remembered as I honestly didn't remember the day until Facebook decided to push it onto me (Thanks Facebook). You don't have to be nice to me today. I don't expect sympathy. In fact, I really don't want sympathy because than I'm allowing the situation to reopen and that's not really something worth doing. I really don't know how today is going to go, but I should see this as a door opening to allow me to push forward.

**** facebook. Good thing you're still pushing through though.

Key · 12-10-2016, 11:46 AM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

You should go on Facebook and say with complete seriousness that you are now in a loving relationship with a cactus, and then post a pic of this guy shoving a cactus up his ass that I saw on 4Chan.

You give the best advice.

Paedantic Basterd · 12-10-2016, 11:50 AM

Almost a year to the date of my worst break up, I dreamed he died in a car accident. It was cathartic.

~~ChelseaDagger~~ · 12-10-2016, 12:19 PM

Wrong, Ki. You do know how this day is going to go, because you have the choice of either allowing yourself to spiral into a cycle of negative thinking and "what ifs," or you can can decide to reflect on the fact that a mere year ago, you decided to end a toxic relationship of betrayal in order to spend the next year bravely confronting your demons so that you can eventually leave them behind you in peace.

Ol’ Qwerty Bastard · 12-10-2016, 12:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Paedantic Basterd

Almost a year to the date of my worst break up, I dreamed he died in a car accident. It was carthartic.

ftfy

12-10-2016, 10:52 AM	#103 (permalink)
Key . Join Date: Dec 2010 Posts: 13,153	I really only want to bring this up in here because it's my journal and I can do whatever the ** I want in here. I honestly would not have come to realize this had I not logged into Facebook this morning, but on this day a year ago was the day I separated myself from the girl I thought I was meant for. At this point in time, we had both come to a mutual agreement and decided it was best for us to go our separate ways (little did I know she would end up with the guy she had been cheating on me with the next day). I really don't know what to feel because I really haven't been through this type of thing before, so today could literally be really good, or it can be really bad. All I really want to try to do is keep my mind on things that make me happy, and attempt to not reflect on the past. Let's face it, this is a **ty thing to be reminded of and when I saw it, the whole ordeal I had been through up until this point today felt rather fresh. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it makes sense in my head, so whatever. I really also don't know if these types of things should be remembered as I honestly didn't remember the day until Facebook decided to push it onto me (Thanks Facebook). You don't have to be nice to me today. I don't expect sympathy. In fact, I really don't want sympathy because than I'm allowing the situation to reopen and that's not really something worth doing. I really don't know how today is going to go, but I should see this as a door opening to allow me to push forward.

12-10-2016, 11:50 AM	#108 (permalink)
Paedantic Basterd Music Addict Join Date: Sep 2010 Posts: 5,184	Almost a year to the date of my worst break up, I dreamed he died in a car accident. It was cathartic.

12-10-2016, 12:19 PM	#109 (permalink)
~~ChelseaDagger~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Jul 2015 Location: In the fires of your own disillusion Posts: 684	Wrong, Ki. You do know how this day is going to go, because you have the choice of either allowing yourself to spiral into a cycle of negative thinking and "what ifs," or you can can decide to reflect on the fact that a mere year ago, you decided to end a toxic relationship of betrayal in order to spend the next year bravely confronting your demons so that you can eventually leave them behind you in peace.