RoxyRollah

Exitmusic: Passage ('12)

Nashville, Tennessee 2004: 2 hits of super clean lsd, neon, candles, and flowers everywhere, I spent a lifetime lost inside someone else's soul one night in July. Ten years later at 5:00 am on a Tuesday a "recommended" Spotify click sent me back to the future. What I mean by that is during this 5 minute and 40 second long journey, I had the most vivid memory I think I have ever experienced in my life. I wish I could say I was being dramatic, and writing that just for the sake of sounding cool, but I am not, those are my deepest feelings. And every sense I had that evening back in 2004 hit me like a ton of bricks. Overwhelming happiness, laughter, the feel of skin on skin, teeth on flesh, anticipation, joy, sadness, loss, peace,and the feeling of being completely stripped bare in front of someone else and it being ok! Is the only real peace in this life I have ever known to be truthful with you. To know someone else, and have them know me. Introverts, no matter how introverted still desire to be seen by others, just not by the masses but by the right few. Songs can embody heaven, heaven can be felt through a connection with someone, and music can connect you to someone, even when they are gone. Passage is perfectly tailored to the dream pop lover, the shoegaze fanatic, and the hopeless romantic that I know is in there, even if you don't admit it I have a thing for the wall of sound, and the build up to it. I have a thing for shaky vocals. But what the hell do I know anyway right? I just know how music makes me feel, I know the experiences that have impacted and shaped me for the better, and I know a memory with a soundtrack is better then a silent one. So my darlings I leave you with Exitmusic.....

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Pomegranates: Pass Away ('12)

"Here we are back at the edge of time, and all I want is to make you mine!" I am a sucker for great opening lines, and that one as simple as it may be, excites me! Let me just say this right now, this song plays out much like it were on a Saturday Night Fever Hipster Edition album. And that's because it pretty much is a some sort of indie, post disco mold, of awesomeness! The upbeat tempo, and high falsetto's, make this the perfect song to dance the night away to at a wedding, disco, or hell alone in your room. God knows I would totally do all of those options.....Multiple times! Admit it as you are listening your right shoulder is moving up and down, front to back, and it's totally ok! I know all about it right now! (Cause mine is doing the same thing..... ) There is something completely youthful and refreshing about this song and I like that. It gives me a much needed shot of emotional vitality, in my musical library. Deep thinking is a curse of mine, and so many of my songs are very depressing to the 'well adjusted'.

To hell with the 'well adjusted'!!!

Honestly I don't give a **** what my library does for the, 'well adjusted!' Ha! Nope, no I don't. Because if you have made it this far into my journal, on some level you are able to connect, with the music,writing, or both and that means you have some unresolved issues of your own! So, "Here we are back at the edge of time, and all I want is to make you mine!" Pretty rad right? Now you are excited too!

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Lower Dens: I Get Nervous ('10)

Do you remember where you were Dec.31st 1999? I do. I was skinny dipping in the Indian ocean, wondering if the world would end. Wondering if this were to be my final resting place. Beautiful black water, warm, weightless, and accepting of the inevitable. This is the emotion that swells within me from the opening bars of I Get Nervous, till the final note. The build up to the overwhelming swell of guitars, the reverb, it's all layered and overlapped spectacularly! The soft bewitching female vocals, and hypnotic hook, almost intensify the feeling of something grater then ones own self, the feeling of leaving everything and everyone that ever mattered to you and going home. The feeling of being free. There is a fear and anxiety that goes with that, as well as an excitement, and euphoria. It's exhilarating, and devastating all within the same breath. Beautiful black warm water, weightless, calm and smooth as glass.

They say the eyes are the window to the soul. And if that is the case then music is the doorway. Why go through a window when you can open a door?
And if a door is opened in front of you then why not walk through, however frightening it maybe on the other side.

Here is the door, now step inside..........



Goodnight Kiddies

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