Caleb48kb

Hey folks. I'll try to keep this journal music related.

A few important things:
1. Music often influences my mood more than I can.
2. I am "bipolar".
3. I went to one year of college last year, and couldn't find out what I wanted to "do". Therefore I am here. I'm not really sure where here is, but I am here.

Anyways, either I will use this music journal way too much, or way too little.


My fiance and I are fighting about nothing again, so I am listening to Guster. Their newer albums help me calm down and relax, and realize how trivial, frivolous, ridiculous most things are. It helps me scoop out the bull **** of my life, and realize how amazing it feels to just--be.

Guster - Lightning Rod


Take it easy,
Caleb

Caleb48kb

I took about a 100 mile drive today. I often do that when I am upset. A few things have been upsetting me recently, and it felt good to just get away.

I live below Buffalo, New York. The scenery at this time of year is very somber and desolate. I actually found the absence of leaves, and chilly air quite calming. I popped in my Creedence Clearwater Revival cd, and just drove around back roads of the Seneca Nation.

It really calmed me.

CCR- Lookin' Out my Back Door



Take it easy,
Caleb

someonecompletelyrandom

So your Bipolar? I've several family members with that. Managable but difficult. You and Stone Birds should have a lot to talk about.

Schizotypic

This is like an actual Journal... I guess there's nothing wrong with that. I used to really, really like Guster. I mean, I still do but it doesn't get as much spins anymore. Never really helped me relax, it just reminded me of my life and then I was just being... being I wasn't doing anything. Just sitting there, listening to some intense song that mirrors my life.... wow, well that was kind of a rant.

Good solid album Ganging Up On The Sun is though, even after all this time and I don't care what anybody says. My favorite track was always Ruby Falls. My recommendation is to try The Album Leaf out, Boards Of Canada, Fat Freddy's Drop, DJ Shadow, The Church maybe. Ohhh, The Cure has an album called Faith, check that out it's really nice and winter-like and calm. You already probably love The Arcade Fire. Okay, well again, ranting.

So since your journal was about life, I guess I'll finish with good luck with your life. Bring guns.

Caleb48kb

Very cool, thanks I will check those out right now while I am typing.

Yeah, you pretty much nailed what I am doing schizotypic. Lol also I took the journal part literally. Oh and I guess being bipolar is manageable :P. If by that you mean my mood swings are so uncalled for that it costs me friendships, you got it hehe.

Today
I have been writing music all day, and am failing at writing happy songs! My fiance really wants me to write a happy song, because, well, most of my songs are about death. I am not a dogmatic person. I just over prepare :P.
All kidding aside, I think all artists should write about what is most important to them. We should write more about real
things. Not who stole your car, or how much you like maple syrup. As you see the happy song isn't coming out today lol.

Yes Guster is awesome. I love them, not just because they make great music and have amazing harmonies, but because they are so HUMBLE. Most other artists I listen to forget, or already have forgotten what making music was about. Its about love, passion, and those goosebumps you have when you have a revelation. Not about a pay check.
Anyways, now I'm rambling on.

Take it easy,
Caleb

Caleb48kb

Hey!

Anyways, I have been in a great limbo in life of what I want. What I need. What I crave.
I have found a resolution! Let others tell me what I want!
Just kidding. I am a huge fan of theories. Any kind of theory. Whether it be from theoretical physics, or theoretical music! I don't know what it is about it, but it makes me go wild and crave more knowledge. Oh there I even used the word crave.
Now this leaves me with one dilemma. I must readmit to my college. Or go to a community college. I am best at English, and I know this, but regardless I keep writing run-on sentences lol its so much fun. Science is my worst subject, it always has been. I get discouraged at the changing facts, and fatal flaws I see in it. Not as discouraged I am with religion. I had to throw in some controversy

Seriously though- If anyone has any advice for me, and I know that most people on this spinning rock have felt as ambivalent as I have, then don't be afraid to take hold of your keyboard and finger away.


What I want: To be happier than Hugh Hefner on his birthday.
What I need: Friends, Love, Enough money to be comfortable, and MUSIC
What I crave: Power. Not scary power, just power over my own life and a few million people. Just kidding. I do crave power, and I won't lie about it. Call it a flaw, I'll call it drive.


Take it easy,
Caleb

Caleb48kb

Them Crooked Vultures- "New Fang"


I'm not sure why, but I am really digging this music. Take into mind, I usually listen to acoustic music. John's bass lines are immaculate in this song!

Caleb48kb

Today I am in a bubbly mood. Often I invent ridiculous things when I am bored. If you are feeling a little ridiculous, or a little softer than usual, I suggest you listen to Brett Dennen.


Brett Dennen - When you Feel it

I've had his "So Much More" album on for an hour, and have just been drawing away. Whether I am drawing anything important or frivolous I know not. It is just necessary sometimes in my life to feel like I need to just be.

Well I'm here just being, drawing and listening to this album.


Take it eazzzyyy,
Caleb

someonecompletelyrandom

Could you give me some more info about this one?

Caleb48kb

John Bonham's bass. Josh Homme's guitar and vocals. David Grohl's drums. An epic band in the making. Alot of desert rock in this band.

Check this out--



if the youtube link doesn't work.

Them Crooked Vultures- "No one loves me & Neither do I"