Sugar's Musical Reflections

Arya Stark · 01-19-2010, 07:28 PM

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Originally Posted by VEGANGELICA

Dear AwwSugar,

I knew from what you wrote about a song earlier in your journal that abandonment hits you hard. I had wondered what triggered this sensitivity in you. Now I know you have experienced being left. It sounds like you haven't been able to depend on some people you had yearned to have stay in your life.

Yes, I can relate to the song and the anguish of these boys who grew to be men and still feel abandoned. They still wrestle with the feeling that they are worthless because the person (parent), who should have been the most important and comforting person in their lives, was not there for them. You can hear the heartbreak in the vocals, which are nearly screamed, almost ironic, since it is obvious they are not really fine. The song reminds me of a Tracy Bonham song about "Mother, Mother."

Your version of "The Day I Left The Womb" is definitely sweeter than the original. It is hard to sing with a throat tight due to being near to tears...or when you can't sing out. I'd like to hear your full out version when you are in a practice room and not in your dorm. When I sing and start to cry, my throat clenches up and I can barely get a sound out.

I am wondering now: are you feeling lonely? Is this one reason you like music, because it fills an emotional void? You always seem so stable and secure. (You don't have to answer here! I'm just wondering out "loud.")

About abandonment: I used to feel the bereft feeling as a physical pain. Part of the palm of my left hand ached when the feeling came over me. I thought it was interesting that emotion caused a physical pain in my body...as if the emotional anguish stabbed me in my left hand, in the part of the palm that is furthest from both fingers and thumb. I would rub this aching corner of my palm, trying to make the pain go away, but of course since it was a pain caused by emotion, my emotions and not my hand were what needed healing and care. I've always wondered if anyone else feels or has felt emotion as a physical pain.

To feel left and unvalued by those you love is an awful feeling.

Erica,
I'm responding in a PM.

Arya Stark · 01-20-2010, 12:24 AM

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Originally Posted by mojopinuk

Hehe thats a really cool story. I think id be a bit reluctant. I'm always thinking that i couldnt be bothered with the criticism of my music taste cause i hate those arguments.

Ohh, I didn't see this response earlier.
I didn't want to for fear of criticism as well.
But try to imagine the most open-minded person in the entire world, and that's the kind of guy we're dealing with here.
I wasn't afraid to show him, just to hear anything from annoyed, late-night clothes-washing customers.

DiSTANToblivion · 01-20-2010, 04:32 AM

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Originally Posted by AwwSugar

Edit: I don't know what it is, but I sound really muffled for some reason. It didn't sound like that when i played it on YouTube.
I'll try directing it towards me next time, but I get way too shy and it won't come out as... enthusiastic, I suppose.
>.<

Wow, I much prefer your cover of this over the original. I don't really like that guys voice much.

The lyrics are very heartbreaking you're right. I know many people don't like the whole 'emo' thing, but when you really listen to some stuff without being judgmental you may find some music that you can relate to or enjoy. Nice post Sugar.

Arya Stark · 01-20-2010, 12:08 PM

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Originally Posted by DiSTANToblivion

Wow, I much prefer your cover of this over the original. I don't really like that guys voice much.

The lyrics are very heartbreaking you're right. I know many people don't like the whole 'emo' thing, but when you really listen to some stuff without being judgmental you may find some music that you can relate to or enjoy. Nice post Sugar.

I'm glad you like my cover, DO. [=
And you're absolutely right, a lot of people will limit themselves from listening to this type of music because it's considered "emo" and they never get a chance to find the connection a lot of the music can create.
Thank you for reading. [=

gogojessicat · 01-21-2010, 12:32 AM

I just want to say i was catching up on your journal entries here and i'm glad you posted that song by the xx, because i fell in love. i skimmed over listening to that album so, thanks for bringing my attention back to that song!

DiSTANToblivion · 01-21-2010, 04:19 AM

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Originally Posted by AwwSugar

I'm glad you like my cover, DO. [=
And you're absolutely right, a lot of people will limit themselves from listening to this type of music because it's considered "emo" and they never get a chance to find the connection a lot of the music can create.
Thank you for reading. [=

Anytime, lookiing forward to more.

Arya Stark · 01-21-2010, 01:32 PM

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Originally Posted by gogojessicat

I just want to say i was catching up on your journal entries here and i'm glad you posted that song by the xx, because i fell in love. i skimmed over listening to that album so, thanks for bringing my attention back to that song!

Hehe, no problem.
=P Thank my daddy.

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Originally Posted by DiSTANToblivion

Anytime, lookiing forward to more.

Arya Stark · 01-24-2010, 01:18 AM

Amesours

Youtube added to the recommendation feature.
They now tell you what video made them recommend the one that they did.
Because I favourited an Alcest video, this band was recommended to me.
Have I fallen in love? It's too late to tell, it's 2 15 in the morning and I can't listen to the music too loudly.
Am I interested? Most definitely.
Since this is my last day at home for a few months, I downloaded their self-titled album for the ride home. I'm definitely excited.
[[= Night everyone.

DiSTANToblivion · 01-24-2010, 07:38 AM

^^^
Though I can't say that I listen to any non-english bands that was very nice Sugar.

Any other info on this band?

JJJ567 · 01-24-2010, 12:48 PM

I really dig that entire The xx album. I discovered it right before it started getting a lot of hype. I haven't played it nearly enough, but it's a good listen. It's very heartfelt and relaxing.

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DiSTANToblivion Music Addict Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Australia Posts: 505	^^^ Though I can't say that I listen to any non-english bands that was very nice Sugar. Any other info on this band? __________________ last.fm Journal deviantART

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JJJ567 Music Addict Join Date: Jan 2009 Posts: 120	I really dig that entire The xx album. I discovered it right before it started getting a lot of hype. I haven't played it nearly enough, but it's a good listen. It's very heartfelt and relaxing. __________________ http://www.last.fm/user/JJJ567

01-21-2010, 12:32 AM	#55 (permalink)
gogojessicat Music Addict Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: maine Posts: 121	I just want to say i was catching up on your journal entries here and i'm glad you posted that song by the xx, because i fell in love. i skimmed over listening to that album so, thanks for bringing my attention back to that song!