Originally Posted by VEGANGELICA (Post 813153)

Dear AwwSugar,

I knew from what you wrote about a song earlier in your journal that abandonment hits you hard. I had wondered what triggered this sensitivity in you. Now I know you have experienced being left. It sounds like you haven't been able to depend on some people you had yearned to have stay in your life.

Yes, I can relate to the song and the anguish of these boys who grew to be men and still feel abandoned. They still wrestle with the feeling that they are worthless because the person (parent), who should have been the most important and comforting person in their lives, was not there for them. You can hear the heartbreak in the vocals, which are nearly screamed, almost ironic, since it is obvious they are not really fine. The song reminds me of a Tracy Bonham song about "Mother, Mother."

Your version of "The Day I Left The Womb" is definitely sweeter than the original. It is hard to sing with a throat tight due to being near to tears...or when you can't sing out. I'd like to hear your full out version when you are in a practice room and not in your dorm. When I sing and start to cry, my throat clenches up and I can barely get a sound out.

I am wondering now: are you feeling lonely? Is this one reason you like music, because it fills an emotional void? You always seem so stable and secure. (You don't have to answer here! I'm just wondering out "loud.")

About abandonment: I used to feel the bereft feeling as a physical pain. Part of the palm of my left hand ached when the feeling came over me. I thought it was interesting that emotion caused a physical pain in my body...as if the emotional anguish stabbed me in my left hand, in the part of the palm that is furthest from both fingers and thumb. I would rub this aching corner of my palm, trying to make the pain go away, but of course since it was a pain caused by emotion, my emotions and not my hand were what needed healing and care. I've always wondered if anyone else feels or has felt emotion as a physical pain.

To feel left and unvalued by those you love is an awful feeling.

Originally Posted by mojopinuk (Post 813365)

Hehe thats a really cool story. I think id be a bit reluctant. I'm always thinking that i couldnt be bothered with the criticism of my music taste cause i hate those arguments.

Originally Posted by AwwSugar (Post 808251)

Edit: I don't know what it is, but I sound really muffled for some reason. It didn't sound like that when i played it on YouTube.
I'll try directing it towards me next time, but I get way too shy and it won't come out as... enthusiastic, I suppose.
>.<

Originally Posted by DiSTANToblivion (Post 813613)

Wow, I much prefer your cover of this over the original. I don't really like that guys voice much.

The lyrics are very heartbreaking you're right. I know many people don't like the whole 'emo' thing, but when you really listen to some stuff without being judgmental you may find some music that you can relate to or enjoy. Nice post Sugar. :)

Originally Posted by AwwSugar (Post 813712)

I'm glad you like my cover, DO. [=
And you're absolutely right, a lot of people will limit themselves from listening to this type of music because it's considered "emo" and they never get a chance to find the connection a lot of the music can create.
Thank you for reading. [=

Originally Posted by gogojessicat (Post 814171)

I just want to say i was catching up on your journal entries here and i'm glad you posted that song by the xx, because i fell in love. i skimmed over listening to that album so, thanks for bringing my attention back to that song!

Originally Posted by DiSTANToblivion (Post 814194)

Anytime, lookiing forward to more.