Random thoughts/ Journal
 

A place to dump random blatherings I may have the urge to write down.

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Oh damn. I forgot about this one and posted a new one. Please forgive me for that, and ignore it entirely, I write in this one what I did in the other one.


what is playing in my ear right now: YouTube - Ahab - Old Thunder

Now, I'm not usually a fan of doom metal, but Ahab is the exception to the rule. They have all the power and heaviness a doom band should have, but are not plagued by poor vocals or cheesy lyrics like most other bands in the genre are. To my knowledge they have only released one studio album and you can probably guess what the songs are all based around: Captain Ahab and Moby ****.

The music and lyrics fit perfectly together, as the music gives me the image of being assaulted by wave after salty wave, and being battered by the unforgiving ocean. I feel a certain depth to their music. Their vocals are also very powerful and sound as if they are being bellowed by Moby **** himself from the bottom of the ocean.

Over the past few days, I have had a dark cloud hanging over my head. It might be the fact that right now I'm currently jobless and have no disposable income to do anything. It might be that I have lost the urge to create things, and have my creativity sapped. All that I know is that I'm in an emotional low and I don't know how to get out of it. I've tried to drop off some resumes here and there, but nothing really promising. No call backs or anything. And everytime I try and sit down and write something I have no inspiration. This isn't to say that I think it's just these things that are dragging me down, there are plenty of other things I suppose, but they are much smaller and insignificant, because if I had either of the other two things going for me, I could get by a little easier.

My advice, not that you asked for it, doing something physically tangible. Build something or repair something, paint something. A lot of times forcing yourself to doing something physically taxing frees up your creativity. Plus worst case scenario you got something done.

I spent the past few days with some classmates and that helped at least take my mind off of it. Today, I plan to actually get up and do things. Thank you for the advice

I'm just starting to listen to Les Claypool's album: Of Fungi and Foe, and let me say, I am quite impressed.

Any fans of Primus know Les Claypool's weird and funky style of playing his bass guitar on top of his strange lyrics that typically tell a story. This is clearly still in that style, but with Les at the wheel entirely this time around without the other two members of Primus. This means that all of the instruments are written by the madman himself.

It feels vaguely like his work with his band, only more...experiemental, and quirky, seeing as Les focuses on all the instruments as opposed to just his bass guitar.

YouTube - Les Claypool - Mushroom Men

Good choice with Ahab, I love that band. "The Call of the Wretched Sea" is one of my favorite albums to sleep to, that and Sleep's "Dopesmoker"

I get like this every now and then, like a heavy, sinking feeling that there's nothing happening in your life and you crave to do anything, but all you can do is sit and mope. Had it yesterday for awhile, find it's best cured by a healthy dose of alcohol.

Call of The Wretched Sea is an amazing album. I listen to it when I'm in a mood to write and when I just want some good background noise.

Usually what I do to cure it is go out and see people. When that fails me I either try to write something, mess around on my drums, or take a walk. There's this great forest in my backyard that is great for walking in and contemplating my life.