The personal story thread

Blank. · 07-11-2018, 08:56 PM

When I was a young boy
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band
He said, "Son, when you grow up
Would you be the savior of the broken
The beaten and the damned?"
He said, "Will you defeat them?
Your demons, and all the non-believers
The plans that they have made?"
"Because one day, I'll leave you
A phantom to lead you in the summer
To join the black parade"

Key · 07-11-2018, 09:35 PM

I have an entire journal for this exact thing.

**Frownland** · 07-11-2018, 10:01 PM

Let me be frank: when I was 20 years old, I was married and had a kid. I was working long shifts at a factory job just trying to get by and it was getting rough dude. I couldn't afford food, I was getting evicted, I was absolutely ****ed. I was desperate, hungry, sleep-deprived, and delusional to the point of wanting to kill my family, both to protect them from the struggle of poverty and to protect myself from it. In a feverish rush I picked up a gun, walked across the room, pointed it at the six month old baby in the crib, and fired. I turned and shot my wife next. After that, I ****ing lost it, weeping, teardrops pouring down my cheeks. So much remorse, shouting what have I done? I pointed the gun at my head and ended it. I was just a corpse on the ground with my family. Then I went to hell where I'm at today and I was like "aaaahhhh". Btw you're all here too.

Chula Vista · 07-11-2018, 10:10 PM

Explains a lot. A heck of a lot. The quality (or lack there-of) of your music being front and center. Should have just shot off your fingers and spared us all the subsequent grief.

**Frownland** · 07-11-2018, 10:12 PM

*snooze*

One thing that I will concede is that the construct of my music that exists in your head is more powerful than anything that I could muster.

Key · 07-11-2018, 10:16 PM

Deleting because I'm an idiot

The Batlord · 07-11-2018, 10:21 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Frownland

Let me be frank: when I was 20 years old, I was married and had a kid. I was working long shifts at a factory job just trying to get by and it was getting rough dude. I couldn't afford food, I was getting evicted, I was absolutely ****ed. I was desperate, hungry, sleep-deprived, and delusional to the point of wanting to kill my family, both to protect them from the struggle of poverty and to protect myself from it. In a feverish rush I picked up a gun, walked across the room, pointed it at the six month old baby in the crib, and fired. I turned and shot my wife next. After that, I ****ing lost it, weeping, teardrops pouring down my cheeks. So much remorse, shouting what have I done? I pointed the gun at my head and ended it. I was just a corpse on the ground with my family. Then I went to hell where I'm at today and I was like "aaaahhhh". Btw you're all here too.

Yeah I didn't finish this cause I knew what it was by the third sentence.

**Frownland** · 07-11-2018, 10:25 PM

Damn. And I thought that I was being so subtle.

Neapolitan · 07-11-2018, 10:42 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Explains a lot. A heck of a lot. The quality (or lack there-of) of your music being front and center. Should have just shot off your fingers and spared us all the subsequent grief.

Wow, that is pretty rough wishing. I would never wish that on anyone.

The other day I saw a man with no hands, just two hooks, not even a hand-like prosthetic, not that they would be any more useful. I couldn't imagine what his life would be like. As a musician it shook me to the core. I thought I should be more grateful for what I have.

I would never joke around like that. Even if you're make-believe Chula pretending, that's pretty rough **** you're imagining there.

**Frownland** · 07-11-2018, 10:44 PM

If I lost my hands I would just get robot hands which can do things that are infinitely crazier and more irritating to the likes of TH and Chula.

07-11-2018, 10:01 PM	#13 (permalink)
Frownland SOPHIE FOREVER Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: East of the Southern North American West Posts: 35,541	Let me be frank: when I was 20 years old, I was married and had a kid. I was working long shifts at a factory job just trying to get by and it was getting rough dude. I couldn't afford food, I was getting evicted, I was absolutely **ed. I was desperate, hungry, sleep-deprived, and delusional to the point of wanting to kill my family, both to protect them from the struggle of poverty and to protect myself from it. In a feverish rush I picked up a gun, walked across the room, pointed it at the six month old baby in the crib, and fired. I turned and shot my wife next. After that, I *ing lost it, weeping, teardrops pouring down my cheeks. So much remorse, shouting what have I done? I pointed the gun at my head and ended it. I was just a corpse on the ground with my family. Then I went to hell where I'm at today and I was like "aaaahhhh". Btw you're all here too. __________________ Studies show that when a given norm is changed in the face of the unchanging, the remaining contradictions will parallel the truth.* d e a f b o x

07-11-2018, 10:10 PM	#14 (permalink)
Chula Vista Toasted Poster Join Date: Oct 2014 Location: SoCal by way of Boston Posts: 11,332	Explains a lot. A heck of a lot. The quality (or lack there-of) of your music being front and center. Should have just shot off your fingers and spared us all the subsequent grief. __________________ “The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well, on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be.”

07-11-2018, 10:12 PM	#15 (permalink)
Frownland SOPHIE FOREVER Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: East of the Southern North American West Posts: 35,541	snooze One thing that I will concede is that the construct of my music that exists in your head is more powerful than anything that I could muster. __________________ Studies show that when a given norm is changed in the face of the unchanging, the remaining contradictions will parallel the truth. d e a f b o x

07-11-2018, 10:16 PM	#16 (permalink)
Key . Join Date: Dec 2010 Posts: 13,153	Deleting because I'm an idiot Last edited by Key; 07-11-2018 at 10:48 PM.

07-11-2018, 10:25 PM	#18 (permalink)
Frownland SOPHIE FOREVER Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: East of the Southern North American West Posts: 35,541	Damn. And I thought that I was being so subtle. __________________ Studies show that when a given norm is changed in the face of the unchanging, the remaining contradictions will parallel the truth. d e a f b o x

07-11-2018, 08:56 PM	#11 (permalink)
Blank. Jacob Sartorius Join Date: May 2016 Location: Dank memes Posts: 4,033	When I was a young boy My father took me into the city To see a marching band He said, "Son, when you grow up Would you be the savior of the broken The beaten and the damned?" He said, "Will you defeat them? Your demons, and all the non-believers The plans that they have made?" "Because one day, I'll leave you A phantom to lead you in the summer To join the black parade"

07-11-2018, 09:35 PM	#12 (permalink)
Key . Join Date: Dec 2010 Posts: 13,153	I have an entire journal for this exact thing.

07-11-2018, 10:44 PM	#20 (permalink)
Frownland SOPHIE FOREVER Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: East of the Southern North American West Posts: 35,541	If I lost my hands I would just get robot hands which can do things that are infinitely crazier and more irritating to the likes of TH and Chula. __________________ Studies show that when a given norm is changed in the face of the unchanging, the remaining contradictions will parallel the truth. d e a f b o x