Let's start over.

Key · 05-31-2018, 02:34 PM

Hey look it's Ki again. Yeah yeah. Listen. I've made far too many mistakes that has led to my own demise at this forum, but for one reason or another I find myself coming back. Not only for the heated discussions, but for the community as well. I feel like 2017 and even some of 2016 was where our community was at its best. Let's achieve that again.

And in another note, I'd like to publicly apologize for pretty much everything that I have done over the past few months to a year regarding the forum. I've been an unnecessary ******* and I've also managed to ruin good friendships here. Evidently my own doing.

I'm a laughing stock and honestly I deserve it. I wouldn't want to associate with me either.

Anything that has either spiraled out of control or even forum drama that was caused due to me being obboxious, I've pretty much taken full responsibility of that. On top of that, if you'd like to accept my apology based on some thing I didn't know I did or I was told and didn't apologize, consider this that apology and multiply it.

I like this forum. I like the people here. I like the heated arguments a lot o times and I feel like we are just a community of people wanting to have a good time.

I'm not expecting anybody to accept an apology from me especially if you don't forgive anything I've said here but it's there if you want it.

I would just like to offer that perhaps we consider this "me starting over." If we can forgive the past Ki, we can move forward from it. I'm genuinely working on myself and while I do deal with a pretty severe case of anxiety and depression, I'm doing what I can to still be the person I wanna be. Don't take the depression as an excuse. It's not an excuse. I'm just putting that out there.

Anyway,

TL'DR, I'm sorry.

If you find this to be to dramatic for a forum, well...Oh well.

grindy · 05-31-2018, 02:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Kiiii

I'm genuinely working on myself and while I do deal with a pretty severe case of anxiety and depression, I'm doing what I can to still be the prison I wanna be.

Harsh.

The Batlord · 05-31-2018, 02:38 PM

Bro, just be the lighthearted troll you were back in the day and it's all good. Just stop being mopey and even more oversensitive than usual. It sucks trying to gauge your shifting moods and then being forced to troll you when you flip out. Because of course we have to troll you when you flip out.

Ol’ Qwerty Bastard · 05-31-2018, 02:39 PM

good to see you around again, pal.

Key · 05-31-2018, 02:42 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

Bro, just be the lighthearted troll you were back in the day and it's all good. Just stop being mopey and even more oversensitive than usual. It sucks trying to gauge your shifting moods and then being forced to troll you when you flip out. Because of course we have to troll you when you flip out.

Believe me, that's probably something I want to work on entirely. As the years went on, I became more and more welcoming of just being straight up *******-ish and unwilling to cooperate. I mean yeah I an ******* in person but not nearly to extent that I am here. I also really need to stop trying to mistake a full on personal attack into a joke because it falls flat 100% of the time.

I turned 27 recently and I'm getting older not younger. I don't want to be seen as the guy who doesn't seem to understand sensitivity etc because I do. I'm genuinely a sensitive guy and I always try to be nice to people. It's no excuse obviously but I just want to work on it and be a part of this place again.

I've been off of social media for a few months now and it's really fantastic what it can do to your mentality. Now I just want to chill, talk music, video games etc with you guys.

The Batlord · 05-31-2018, 02:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Kiiii

Believe me, that's probably something I want to work on entirely. As the years went on, I became more and more welcoming of just being straight up *******-ish and unwilling to cooperate. I mean yeah I an ******* in person but not nearly to extent that I am here. I also really need to stop trying to mistake a full on personal attack into a joke because it falls flat 100% of the time.

I turned 27 recently and I'm getting older not younger. I don't want to be seen as the guy who doesn't seem to understand sensitivity etc because I do. I'm genuinely a sensitive guy and I always try to be nice to people. It's no excuse obviously but I just want to work on it and be a part of this place again.

I've been off of social media for a few months now and it's really fantastic what it can do to your mentality. Now I just want to chill, talk music, video games etc with you guys.

Then bitch me into playing Dark Souls cause I'm getting the itch after a handful of attempts at the beginning over the years and rage quitting like a pussy after losing to the first boss cause I ain't gud.

~~MicShazam~~ · 05-31-2018, 02:51 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

Then bitch me into playing Dark Souls cause I'm getting the itch after a handful of attempts at the beginning over the years and rage quitting like a pussy after losing to the first boss cause I ain't gud.

I wasn't good at it but still managed to get halfway through. Some raging involved, but I've played more frustrating games. When are you gonna play Armored Core 5 though? It's also a From Software and it's great.

Black Francis · 05-31-2018, 02:52 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

Then bitch me into playing Dark Souls cause I'm getting the itch after a handful of attempts at the beginning over the years and rage quitting like a pussy after losing to the first boss cause I ain't gud.

The bitch Lvl on this post is off the charts.

The Batlord · 05-31-2018, 03:00 PM

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Originally Posted by MicShazam

I wasn't good at it but still managed to get halfway through. Some raging involved, but I've played more frustrating games. When are you gonna play Armored Core 5 though? It's also a From Software and it's great.

It's a series I want to play but I've been on a buying binge of 360 games the past few months just so I can have a massive, diverse encyclopedia of games to choose from at any given moment so that any single game is on a long waiting list. Its time will come but I seem to remember wanting to play 4 more just cause it sounded more about big, hulking mech fights and that's really what I want out of a mech game. 5 sounds like a game to get after I've scratched that itch first. It's just too bad that Mechwarrior never survived into the modern era of gaming. Would love to play a recent gen Mechwarrior game that didn't suck.

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Originally Posted by Black Francis

The bitch Lvl on this post is off the charts.

Oh totally. I'm an absolute bitch about games that feel threatening. It's why I keep trying horror games and never get past the first few scares.

Key · 05-31-2018, 02:53 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

Then bitch me into playing Dark Souls cause I'm getting the itch after a handful of attempts at the beginning over the years and rage quitting like a pussy after losing to the first boss cause I ain't gud.

Hey man, I'm in the same boat. I've only played a few hous of the first game.

05-31-2018, 02:34 PM	#1 (permalink)
Key . Join Date: Dec 2010 Posts: 13,153	Let's start over. Hey look it's Ki again. Yeah yeah. Listen. I've made far too many mistakes that has led to my own demise at this forum, but for one reason or another I find myself coming back. Not only for the heated discussions, but for the community as well. I feel like 2017 and even some of 2016 was where our community was at its best. Let's achieve that again. And in another note, I'd like to publicly apologize for pretty much everything that I have done over the past few months to a year regarding the forum. I've been an unnecessary ******* and I've also managed to ruin good friendships here. Evidently my own doing. I'm a laughing stock and honestly I deserve it. I wouldn't want to associate with me either. Anything that has either spiraled out of control or even forum drama that was caused due to me being obboxious, I've pretty much taken full responsibility of that. On top of that, if you'd like to accept my apology based on some thing I didn't know I did or I was told and didn't apologize, consider this that apology and multiply it. I like this forum. I like the people here. I like the heated arguments a lot o times and I feel like we are just a community of people wanting to have a good time. I'm not expecting anybody to accept an apology from me especially if you don't forgive anything I've said here but it's there if you want it. I would just like to offer that perhaps we consider this "me starting over." If we can forgive the past Ki, we can move forward from it. I'm genuinely working on myself and while I do deal with a pretty severe case of anxiety and depression, I'm doing what I can to still be the person I wanna be. Don't take the depression as an excuse. It's not an excuse. I'm just putting that out there. Anyway, TL'DR, I'm sorry. If you find this to be to dramatic for a forum, well...Oh well.