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The Batlord · 08-23-2017, 07:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

I don't think ugly can spread to your liver, pancreas, or prostate, but good luck anyway, bro.

~~Cuthbert~~ · 08-23-2017, 10:12 AM

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Originally Posted by Qwertyy

not exactly. when i was younger i used to have anxiety attacks fairly reguarly during the night because i would scare myself thinking about death. never been religious and i can't think of death as anything else but being nothingness forever.

just the other day i was laying in bed and it all came back to me, first time ive had an anxiety attack in well over 3 years. i haven't had another one since but it's just remained in the back of my mind since.

Can relate. Posted a thread on here about it. I have accepted it and it doesn't worry me as much any more, it's natural and we all go through it. No reason for me to believe that my exit won't be the same as my entrance and I will remember nothing. Maybe you will get to that point soon.

I also think of the pros, nothingness = everything I worry about or hate will be gone and can no longer affect me.

Think I said before a couple months back it is worse at night when you can't sleep.

~~Cuthbert~~ · 08-23-2017, 10:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

Good luck mate.

Trollheart · 08-23-2017, 10:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Mord

Troll, is your wife (or sister or daughter) named Karen?

My baby sister, who is bedbound, suffering from MS (Multiple Sclerosis) - she is a big fan of Jesus and has unshakable faith.

Justthefacts · 08-23-2017, 12:08 PM

The War On Drugs is not good. Not only the actual war being waged on drugs (which I'm really kinda not too opposed too) but especially the band. Their brand of soft-rock, psychedelia sound does nothing for me and whoever hypes them up (especially people at festivals) need to reconsider their lives and maybe start listening to better music. The War On Drugs Can Suck My Dick.

**Frownland** · 08-23-2017, 12:09 PM

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Originally Posted by Justthefacts

The War On Drugs is not good. Not only the actual war being waged on drugs (which I'm really kinda not too opposed too) but especially the band. Their brand of soft-rock, psychedelia sound does nothing for me and whoever hypes them up (especially people at festivals) need to reconsider their lives and maybe start listening to better music. The War On Drugs Can Suck My Dick.

Did they ruin your Benji set?

Aloysius · 08-23-2017, 08:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

Hope it goes well!

Chula Vista · 08-23-2017, 09:03 PM

Check my health journal for the CT results.

The Batlord · 08-24-2017, 09:21 AM

For most of the post I thought you were talking about a courthouse and was kind of confused.

Plankton · 08-24-2017, 09:24 AM

I was hoping there'd be a frog involved.

08-23-2017, 09:03 PM	#45668 (permalink)
Chula Vista Toasted Poster Join Date: Oct 2014 Location: SoCal by way of Boston Posts: 11,332	Check my health journal for the CT results. __________________ “The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well, on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be.”

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Plankton Just Keep Swimming... Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: See signature... Posts: 7,765	I was hoping there'd be a frog involved. __________________ See location...