Yeah the red x treatment doesn't really help, sorry to say. :(

Howz aboots nau?

Lol, it's Bryan with a Y.

Of course I know how to control my actions, I'm not gonna kill myself. I'm just saying I feel like it sometimes.

Most people get to a point where they sit down and do nothing, but that's when they're in their 70s, I'm 23, and yet since I dropped out of school in 3rd grade I live a sheltered life of reclusiveness of which I feel there is no real way of escaping. There's all these things I'd like to do, write, take up some kind of art, etc. But I'm unmotivated because I just can't build up the confidence to do anything and expect to go anywhere with it, because my life is just a back catalogue of failure.

I'm a school dropout who's never so much as made eye contact with a girl and don't even know how to drive, can't even find anyone to teach me. I can't get a job, for a variety of reasons, even though I want one.

lol, I know, but I found that picture on Google randomly and thought it was funny/coincidental because you're name is also Bryan.

Anyway, there's always a way to escape. You've just gotta let go of any inhibitions and just do stuff and let the self-confidence some gradually.

Plus, if it weren't for you, I would have never listened to King Crimson so... there's one notable thing you have achieved :D

Stacking it up to degrade yourself isn't helping either.
Where you go from now is based on your actions alone. So do it ***got.

:)

Well I'm gonna ask my mother for one of my brother's bikes that they never use, I do want to start looking for a job but I need to know in advance how much money I can make without losing money from this disability check I have which I've been using to pay half the rent for I dunno, nearly a decade.

I'd like to take the GED tests eventually. My dream is to pursue a career in fiction writing, I think I have the imagination for it, though my grammar skills are obviously flawed, lol.

:rofl:

My self esteem is crushed yet again, thx.