I'm the only one of the kids that my stepdad raised that hasn't ODed, I at least need to try that in the name of family tradition.

Maybe you should be the one to kill him.

I don't want to kill him I want to paralyze him by swinging a sledge hammer into his spine over and over again.

Get infected with the coronavirus and then cough all over him. He's older and more likely to be adversely affected.

Or I could cut all of his limbs off then a sledge hammer in the spine.

Also burn the face off so he's left looking like an unrecognizable mess of what was once pretending to be human.

I've seen this youtube true crime documentary

LOL

"The strange thing about this case, other than the cruelty of his crimes, was that he cut off all of his hair and hung himself with it. Such a gorgeous noose."

One has to think it out carefully and be very decisive. If you do it on a sudden impulse you’re quite likely to **** it up. I have a plan (with no current intention of carrying it out) that’s a combination of two methods that would not fail. The paradox of suicide is that it’s such a gigantic ordeal that a willingness to go through with everything to make sure it goes as planned is such an effort, psychologically and physically, that if you’re up for all that you’re probably well enough to clean your apartment instead. And if you do it on a sudden impulse even the most tried and true methods like shotguns and jumps are going to be in the 5-10% chance of leaving you crippled instead. Before jumping be sure you understand the limitation of terminal velocity.

People don't like being reminded of how miserable they are especially in a setting like a party.

As goofy as that may seem to you it's no more goofy than when we wallow in our own misery out of some self indulgent fantasy that we're tortured geniuses.

Even worse is that you tried to find something to fit instead of using that opportunity to play the most obnoxious thing you can think of.

I hate people that make hasty superficial judgements like that with no real intent to accept or understand what they are rejecting.

They're usually some of the most self absorbed, narcissistic douche bags about it too.