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Originally Posted by elphenor (Post 2116334)

we drew the short end of the stick with concioussness, or at least I did

"It was a great mistake, my being born a man, I would have been much more successful as a seagull or a fish. As it is, I will always be a stranger who never feels at home, who does not really want and is not really wanted, who can never belong, who must be a little in love with death!"

-Eugene O Neil

The weirdest thing about being human in the social media age is nobody feeling like they fit in or feeling at home.

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Originally Posted by elphenor (Post 2116336)

dunno I would say most people feel like they fit in just fine

I'm pretty sure that's very naive

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Originally Posted by elphenor (Post 2116342)

you can't "not fit in" if there isn't an established stream everyone is floatin' with yes no?

Nobody in that stream feels like they fit in. A lot of them are just desperately trying to look like they fit in. Which is probably a worse hell than being yourself and not fitting in. Cause at least you accept yourself for who you are rather than rejecting it.

Most people who build their identity around being 'different' are basic af and are interchangable with any other gloomy, costumed clown.

So elph, since I'm drunk and you're the only one awake to get my drunken stream of conscious I made this song back in 2015 called Nigrum Cor that just emptied tons of hate I was feeling at the time into it. The song is Latin for 'Black Heart'. I payed an artist I knew 100 bucks for an abstract art piece to capture the emotion behind the song. I was personally envisioning an abstract painting but I gave him all creative freedom based on what he heard. What he sent back was this huge black piece of card board with a black burned rib cage made of broken wire hangers. And a charred thing in the heart position. He says it was just a foot massager but it was charred, with fire, charred black but lit up red and vibrated when you plugged it in. It was way cooler than anything I imagined. It fell apart when he mailed it, but I wasn't mad because it was still really ****ing cool I can post pictures but it doesn't really capture the piece. I used a pic as the album cover but it couldn't capture the piece.. IDK man, Nostalgia on something really really cool. I still have it but haven't seen it in the last 4 years.

Ok, not album cover but single cover. An album cover for the single.

https://lucemferre.bandcamp.com/track/nigrum-cor

Such a dark time in my life despite all the awesome **** a did back then.

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Originally Posted by elphenor (Post 2116346)

not from what I gather

this comes from my exp of growing up in very homogenous communities

You just don't see it because you're superficial af

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Originally Posted by grindy (Post 2116348)

You just don't see it because you're superficial af

Very true. You'd feel way less alienated when you drop that superficial stuff.

Don't front like you don't think that someone wearing blue jeans and listening to Top 40 doesn't have any kind of deeper inner life.

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Originally Posted by elphenor (Post 2116350)

I think that's a basic misunderstanding

I didn't even mention myself, (I don't feel alienated anymore)

other than man I would have liked to have been a Fish

Fish are kind of yummy. I know vegan is better but man, you're asking to be eaten.

Like you gon eat my ding dong.