I find ways to incentivize myself. Like I keep my favorite tea at work so that when I wake up every morning wanting to call out I remember that if I want my morning cup I have to go to work. This is totally a byproduct of disordered eating lol but I'll also be like "you have to make it to your first 15 and then you can have your apple," or whatever. No matter how great a job is you're still gonna have to run down the clock every day. Just have to find little ways to make it suck as little as possible. I'm lucky to have great coworkers and it's becoming less difficult to show up every day, but my point is people don't think it be like that but it do.

I'd love to work night shifts tbh. After 9pm they close the dining room and it becomes essentially casual Friday cause there are no customers to worry about except in the drive thru and the night crew is generally a bunch of dissolute stoners. But I guess I'm too reliable as a day worker so I'm stuck here.

How do you reliable

I show up to work. I mean I've been coming to this site reliably for 9 years. I'm a creature of habit.

I mean I can do that too but from bed. It's the getting out of bed/house that's the trouble for me. But I am on a good streak since returning from leave.

Getting out of bed and showing up to work has never been a problem for me. I can despise the act of getting up and showering and ****ting and going to work but still do it reliably. I only ever call out if I'm legit sick cause I'm from the South where I know that floating the idea of a mental health day would be tantamount to saying I can't come to work cause I'm gay. I'll spend every moment in desperate resentment but that resentment will become a part of my identity that does not become a reason to not show up. Just a reason to not want to wake up.

Wb Elph. How's it goin' dude? Stayin away from the alcohol?

Being able to listen to whatever you want is huge. To me it’s a game changer and a life changer. Without control over what I listen to there were days when I would have sooner killed myself than gone to work. Right now for 90% of the day I don’t have to communicate with anyone and I can keep earbuds or whatever the **** headphones are called these days in BOTH ears blocking out all other sounds. It removes like 80% of the suffering. It still sucks the dong to have to go to work though. But having complete agency over one of your senses is huge. I go to work with a fresh playlist everyday.

^ Agree

Total life changer.

Saw Parasite then downed five cups of coffee. Mmmmmph.