If that doesn't make you want to kill yourself then you have no imagination.

No offense but it seems like everything makes you wanna kill yourself. I have been through far worse. If you would believe it, I've had jobs where I actually miss that old unloading gig.

It wasn't always easy, and there were times it got mundane, but to me it was actually less soul crushing and boring than working retail. The physical aspect got my adrenaline and blood pumping, and I could listen to music/comedy/podcasts to occupy my mind.

And nobody ****ed with me. No customers, no boss breathing down my neck. That's the way I like it. Plus the schedule was 3 12 hour shifts, which was definitely intense for those 3 days, but then you had 4 days off and a full paycheck same as if you worked 9-5 Monday-Friday. That was nice as well.

Tbh of course I've had suicidal thoughts like anyone else. Thinking wouldn't it be easier if I never had to get up in the morning again. Never had to worry about bills. Etc.

But fundamentally, I don't have the suicidal inclination. I have a strong instinct of self preservation, no matter what. The most depressed and hopeless I've ever felt was in jail and at the homeless shelter.

Work sucks but for me, lying around with nothing to do is much worse if you go past 2-3 days. Life becomes mind numbingly boring and meaningless. But everyone is wired differently.

Spent some teen years working in a paper goods distribution warehouse. You haven't lived until you've been part of a 2 man crew unloading an entire 40 foot trailer packed from ceiling to floor with 50 pound sacks of brown grocery bags. On the plus side it was the best shape I've been in my whole life.

I used to collect the Chinese **** I would randomly find on the trucks. Found an empty pack of Chinese cigarettes, a Chinese ID, tons of Chinese ads etc

It was weird to think the people who loaded the same cargo container I'm unloading are on the opposite side of the world in a completely different civilization.

Me and a coworker stumbled across one of these when opening a box of speaker samples from China. Super aggressive little ****er.

(again, on what day did God drop acid? - and what if he had mixed up sizes between these and elephants?)
https://cdn.i-scmp.com/sites/default...t&v=1566604459

There's something really desperate and childish about men bragging about how ****ty the jobs they've worked are. I doubt it made your dick any bigger or actually put hair on your chest. It just sucked.

Church

If you were a man, you'd understand.

Tell me again how much of a man you were when that Chinese company took your balls in the settlement.

Why, you'd have no personal point of reference?