Is something wrong?

Arson's more of a one-off or freelance kinda gig than a sustainable job though.

nothing and everything. the usual.

Only as a fantasy. It’s hard for me to say how close I’ve come to doing something really extreme. I’m terrified of prison and right now I’m not even close to suicidal. I guess when you’re not at that point mentally that frame of mind feels very distant. But when that type of anger or despair sweeps over you it’s like it defines your whole being.

I know a lot of great and exciting things have happened for you recently but sometimes your brain will try to tell you **** all your good news. Plus when good things lose their novelty the default conditions of anxiety and sorrow start bubbling up again. Meh. Sorry for being negative. *hug*

I got fired and I don't really want another job.

Not even a handjob?

Depends on who's giving it.

Damn dude, I’m really really sorry.

Eh, I wasn't going to last much longer just because it just isn't taking care of me. My coworker has been there for 8 years and he's only making $16/hr while the living wage in Utah is about $17/hr. As much as I do like the company and the job and the coworkers I don't want to work 8 years to get just under the living wage, probably less since it'll be higher in 8 years, I'm sure. Plus, they expected me to forklift with no training (which I wasn't too bad at, just really slow because I wasn't comfortable enough with it) and they gave me **** for healthcare. They did let me take my 7 cases for my second anniversary that I never cashed in though. I just don't wanna go back to searching and doing temp work because most places I temp at are going to be **** jobs for **** pay.

I have noticed a trend that every time I lose a job I end up getting a better one. So hopefully it happens again, but I really don't want another job regardless.