yeah dude, when it still feels like the whole world is ahead of you before you realize it all sucks and nothing matters

Mah dude gets it

I bring headphones everywhere. Eliminates many problems. My friend says that he always listens to black metal at raves because he can't stand electronic music.

In the winter I go to the beach and camping

By myself almost always

I have one buddy I hang with about once a month

You guys are depressing man. Jfc. Watch a damn cartoon and laugh at something.

Kind of. I have a hard time playing video games now because I feel like I'm wasting time or that I'm playing the wrong one or something so to deal with the anxiety of playing a video game I procrastinate on the internet like I'm doing now. Back then I'd just throw one on and play.

Cartoons just remind me that every little heartbreak or bit of torture I go through is just a joke for everybody else to laugh at and makes me feel even more alone.

Pot calling the kettle black.

eventually you will get to the other side of this and start laughing at yourself and caring less about other people and relishing the aloneness tbh.

Thisthisthisthisthisthisthis

This tbh

It's true. One man's loneliness is another person's inability to speak to me which is good for me because I hate talking.