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Trollheart · 08-23-2017, 05:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

Best of luck, man. We're all thinking of you. Except Batty.

Seriously, fingers crossed and though I'm not a praying man I'll get Karen to say a prayer for you. I'm sure everything will be all right. Let us know as soon as. Be well.

Zhanteimi · 08-23-2017, 07:29 AM

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Lisnaholic · 08-23-2017, 07:56 AM

I'll be thinking of you too, Chula. I can understand that the anxiety must be terrible. Good Luck.

I think something happens to our circumstances as we get older and it can be summoned up by these two quotes:-

When you're young: "As soon as you're awake, there's a train to take that looks like the easy way out."
As you get older: "Sooner or later, it all gets real."

For me, confronting what's real is a lesson that takes a lifetime to learn.

The Batlord · 08-23-2017, 08:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

I don't think ugly can spread to your liver, pancreas, or prostate, but good luck anyway, bro.

~~Cuthbert~~ · 08-23-2017, 11:12 AM

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Originally Posted by Qwertyy

not exactly. when i was younger i used to have anxiety attacks fairly reguarly during the night because i would scare myself thinking about death. never been religious and i can't think of death as anything else but being nothingness forever.

just the other day i was laying in bed and it all came back to me, first time ive had an anxiety attack in well over 3 years. i haven't had another one since but it's just remained in the back of my mind since.

Can relate. Posted a thread on here about it. I have accepted it and it doesn't worry me as much any more, it's natural and we all go through it. No reason for me to believe that my exit won't be the same as my entrance and I will remember nothing. Maybe you will get to that point soon.

I also think of the pros, nothingness = everything I worry about or hate will be gone and can no longer affect me.

Think I said before a couple months back it is worse at night when you can't sleep.

~~Cuthbert~~ · 08-23-2017, 11:15 AM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

Good luck mate.

Trollheart · 08-23-2017, 11:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Mord

Troll, is your wife (or sister or daughter) named Karen?

My baby sister, who is bedbound, suffering from MS (Multiple Sclerosis) - she is a big fan of Jesus and has unshakable faith.

Justthefacts · 08-23-2017, 01:08 PM

The War On Drugs is not good. Not only the actual war being waged on drugs (which I'm really kinda not too opposed too) but especially the band. Their brand of soft-rock, psychedelia sound does nothing for me and whoever hypes them up (especially people at festivals) need to reconsider their lives and maybe start listening to better music. The War On Drugs Can Suck My Dick.

**Frownland** · 08-23-2017, 01:09 PM

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Originally Posted by Justthefacts

The War On Drugs is not good. Not only the actual war being waged on drugs (which I'm really kinda not too opposed too) but especially the band. Their brand of soft-rock, psychedelia sound does nothing for me and whoever hypes them up (especially people at festivals) need to reconsider their lives and maybe start listening to better music. The War On Drugs Can Suck My Dick.

Did they ruin your Benji set?

Aloysius · 08-23-2017, 09:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

Hope it goes well!

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Lisnaholic ...here to hear... Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: He lives on Love Street Posts: 4,444	I'll be thinking of you too, Chula. I can understand that the anxiety must be terrible. Good Luck. I think something happens to our circumstances as we get older and it can be summoned up by these two quotes:- When you're young: "As soon as you're awake, there's a train to take that looks like the easy way out." As you get older: "Sooner or later, it all gets real." For me, confronting what's real is a lesson that takes a lifetime to learn. __________________ "Am I enjoying this moment? I know of it and perhaps that is enough." - Sybille Bedford, 1953