Chula Vista

Tomorrow morning is the full body CT scan. No more speculation. The results will either be a HUGE sigh of relief, or a sledgehammer to the skull of my family and close friends. Based on all of the blood work and weight loss my doctor is most concerned about my pancreas, prostate, and liver. If you look at the stats, those three are the holy trinity of death for guys in my age group.

It's 12:55 and I highly doubt I'm going to sleep tonight. The brave and funny facade is gone. I'm scared ****less.

Remember the scene with Anton Chigurh and the gas station attendant?

I feel like the gas station attendant right now.

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“The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well,
on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away
and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be.”

Zhanteimi

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Chula Vista

I'll take your well wishes wholeheartedly.

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“The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well,
on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away
and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be.”

Kedvesem

I will pray for you, too.

Chula Vista

I forgot your first name (Ked?) so I'll just say THANK YOU Mrs. Mord!

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“The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well,
on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away
and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be.”

Lucem Ferre

I will kidnap a baby and send it through a wood chipper then use its guts to create a pentagram then with 6 black candles around it and 1 white candle in the middle of it to call upon the dark lord to use his power to help you Chula.

I'll also rub a Buddha belly and put a jihad on an infidel for you too.

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djchameleon

Sending positive vibes your way Chula. Best of luck today.

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Fame, fortune, power, titties. People say these are the most crucial things in life, but you can have a pocket full o' gold and it doesn't mean sh*t if you don't have someone to share that gold with. Seems simple. Yet it's an important lesson to learn. Even lone wolves run in packs sometimes.

Trollheart

Best of luck, man. We're all thinking of you. Except Batty. Seriously, fingers crossed and though I'm not a praying man I'll get Karen to say a prayer for you. I'm sure everything will be all right. Let us know as soon as. Be well.

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Zhanteimi

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Lisnaholic

I'll be thinking of you too, Chula. I can understand that the anxiety must be terrible. Good Luck.

I think something happens to our circumstances as we get older and it can be summoned up by these two quotes:-

When you're young: "As soon as you're awake, there's a train to take that looks like the easy way out."
As you get older: "Sooner or later, it all gets real."

For me, confronting what's real is a lesson that takes a lifetime to learn.

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"Am I enjoying this moment? I know of it and perhaps that is enough." - Sybille Bedford, 1953