Hes from Virginia

I know that. He asked who.My answer remains the same.Everybody in West Virginia.

Yeah, probably because we're so close and share a name, nobody makes fun of West Virginians and their cousin luvin' like us. Kinda like older siblings, except without any unspoken love or respect.

Yesterday.....

Woke up, drank coffee and showered....

Walk three miles through San Fransisco only stopping to look at the post office on Geary and Fillmore which was the headquarters of The Peoples Temple before they all went and drank cyanide lace kool aid in south America

got to the Magnolia brewery on Masonic and Haight where i had a great conversation with a British man named Andrew

WhateverDude showed up.....

Wonderful cup of coffee.....and spent almost $60 in socks

a pleasant train ride which involved a history of WhateverDude's life :)

another amazing cup of coffee and a mimosa and vegan chili fries....

MY BARE FEET IN THE OCEAN!

a wonderful display of graffiti next to the ocean.....

WhateverDude's cute as fuck dog

quite possibly the best food i have ever eaten.....

a lambic with a wonderful friend

a train ride

WHORES.

some embracing and crying

a beer

a really wonderful friend allowed me to sleep after some bad news

WHORES. on the brain

Soo...For those of you who don't know ,I have an 8 year old daughter.Now I gave her up for adoption the day she was born.Her dad and I signed away our parental rights for her to be able to have oh I dunno birthdays and fun stuff that we couldn't give her.Also I was quite the tourtued soul at the time.Herion addicts make terrible parents,right so flash forward to this evening baby daddy calls me and says"Jess gimme the # to the adoption ppl.I am married and have two other kids and I want to raise our daughter.."

" Bitch she's 8 years old have you lost yo godamamn mind?"

Really Bro? You cant just rip a kid from her legal patents.Not to mention if by some miracle you could what the hell makes you think that little girl wants to live in TN in a trailer park with you and yo step kids? What makes you think Id give you the # ? You on dat dope?

Can't even find the number to the adoption agency he put his own kid into? Sounds like a winner. It's called a phone book, ****nut.

I actually was adopted at birth, and can maybe offer some insight for you? First of all, I have never, ever, felt ill will toward my birth mother. I understand, and appreciate, the fact the she realized she couldn't offer me the kind of life she wanted for her child, so she chose to give an opportunity to a couple who desperately wanted a child of their own. I don’t even consider my birth father a factor in the situation, whatsoever.

I’ve never met her, know nothing about her, but I still love her deeply for the decision that she made. Secondly, my adoptive parents are my parents. Cut and dry. They’ve given me an extremely supported life, unwavering amounts of love, a college education, the list goes on.

Let’s just ignore the fact that he kinda sounds like an idiot, especially because he believes any adoption agency would willingly give up any information surrounding your beeb, whether it was an open adoption or not. I’ll be honest; I’ve tried to seek out my birth mother, just to see what she looks like, to learn my ancestry, **** like that. Sometimes I wonder if she’s trying to find me as well. But either way, the couple who raised me are my parents, that will never change.

Thanks Dred. Its nice to hear that from a an adopted childs perspective. I know what I feel iniside,about the whole thing and its really honestly the single most selfless thing I have ever done in a life time of Selfishness.
I understand, where his head is,he called me again around 11 .His current wife is fixed.So he'll never have his own children with her.She has kids of her own,and I guess hes feeling a little empty . I get it, I told him that too.I get what you are thinking honey truly I do,but even if you could get her back, if for some strange reason ,why on earth would you rip her from her adoptive moms? Why? I never gave him the # of the agency, (he can find it on line ) But I did however promise him everything Ive got of hers. Photos and Ive relinquished her hat from the hospital.I don't get it anytime I feel blue I call and get pictures.He could do the same.I really think him calling me was litterally nostalgic.He wanted to keep our child from jump.I think that now after 7 years of not speaking to me or knowing where I was etc, and me finally resurfacing and apologizing because I really hurt him when I was pregnant.I think he legit called me, so I could tell him, "She's happy,loved and fine." You. know he was knida feeling squirrely.I also spoke to his wife via text,because well she was curious,he never told her what who,why. So she wanted to know what happened why we gave her away etc.It was an interesting Tue .

Bat I didnt state the obvious....

Yesterday I found out one of my good friends is in the hospital, suffering from pneumonia while needing a liver transplant, and doing dialysis. So, I go pay him a visit and as we're jabbering away, I get a call from my daughter. She's at the emergency room for a sprained knee, and she won't be able to walk on it for 5 days. It dawned on me that she was born at the same time her grandmother was in the same hospital for stomach surgery and went into a coma a couple of months later.

I told my friend I'd be back today, but **** man... I'm afraid something else is gonna happen if I do. I guess I'll just get my brakes done.

**** hospitals.