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So I went to a party last night and it completely sucked. First off I went to school all day then worked all evening and I got out to my boyfriend's tattoo shop about 11pm. And he said he didnt want to go to the party, he was too busy and needed sleep. So I cried......a lot.....in my car. Then I went in and bribed his lesbian assistant to buy for me. She's cool for doing that. Didnt get back to the party until 1am and apparently the cops had been called for a noise disturbance and that host said no drinking. Well, on the way back from my boyfriends I got a head start and down three bottles of smirnoff twisted. That stuff works on me pretty fast. So I threw a little fit and I had to be taken to the back yard and calmed down. So it ended up being three of us drinking in her shed and I slept in my car.

One of the worst nights of my life. And I think I'm breaking up with my boyfriend because I think a)he is using me for sex and b)he is cheating on me.

Sucks.

I'm sorry Pipers, that sounds awful :(

Sorry to hear about such a horrible night.

I've just come to the realisation in the last week that I've been totally used by someone I trusted above everyone else, and truly believed there was something more there.

Turns out he didn't feel that way at all, and has left me feeling well, you can imagine. "Time's a great healer" - never heard it so many times as I have done in this past week, doesn't change the way you feel right now though.

^ I know that feeling WAAAY to well. I seem to spend more time healing than healed.

I`m listening to the Flaming Lips first album while 'How do you solve a problem like Maria' is on the TV in the background.

Oddly enough it doesn`t sound out of place

Downstairs they were trying to decide whether to watch X Factor or How Do you Solve A Problem Like Maria - sounds like X Factor won!

If those were my choices i`d go out for a pint :)

Yeah. It hurts me to think that I fell for some of the worst lines in the world. Not that they were corny, just that they meant so much to me and he just threw them out there. He told me the second day I knew him he wanted to "keep me forever" and that just sounded so sweet. He would tell me he missed me and wanted me to drive out and see him, then he would precede to say he wanted to get married and have kids someday, he would even say really soon, which I'm 17 and that would NEVER happen. But after sex he would go into another room and somewhat ignore me. And I really cant believe I was so blind to everything. I'm so stupid sometimes. I even got into a huge fight with my parents for him, I defended him, and it was in vain now.

I just feel so ****ing used and he's not calling me to talk and I really dont see this lasting through the night. Why the hell do I attract these guys?

lol pwnt