Oh my god. Is that the friend you've mentioned before?

Well I still haven't found a job despite applying to like thirty places including mcdonald's because that's how desperate i am and meanwhile I'm doing mediocre in school (still holding on to a B- in Spanish though pleasepleaseplease i cant **** this up), sooooo

yeah


my life's been shitty

My car is all packed and I'm read to move tomorrow morning. We won't have internet until Saturday and I'm going down to New Brunswick for a show but by tomorrow night I'll be living in Fort Lee with my cousin. It's finally happening. Many of you know how bad I needed to get out of my house and in a couple hours I will. I'll miss my dog and my parents and in some ways...some...my brother, but I'm finally on the path to happiness.

I'm f*cking excited.

Congratulations!

Still feeling out of it and weird after the events of last week. I haven't even been home a week yet, and being home feels just slightly less weird than being at work did.

Also trying desperately to get used to this new medicine and fight the side effects, because it seems that it may help in the long term. Still just trying to take everything one day at a time.

Bought some new clothes and perfume today, just to have something to do and try to lift my mood.

exo i talked with u in plug but congrats bro


phanastasio i read your journal while i was banned. im sorry it came to that point but im glad u chose to call and save yourself. stay positive. a negativity will get nobody anywhere

Aww well I hope you feel better, I definitely know what it's like to have side effects with medication, it can really dampen how you feel. I think shopping was a great idea, hopefully the medication will settle down.

Thanks, man. And I'm trying to stay positive. Picked the guitar back up, and it had been gathering dust in my funk, so that's got to be a good thing.

Thank you, Vanilla. Shopping did make me feel better. And this medicine is awful. The psychiatrist was all, "minimal side effects," to pimp it to me, and all I've been experiencing (and reading from other people on the medication) is that it's side effect hell.

Ran around literally all day, as I was a backup cashier and fitting room attendant at the same time, then trained a new girl to the ways of my terrifying department

I bend over backwards for these people

and still

all I get is "do it faster, talk to more people"

bleh

Ugh, they love forcing medicines on people as though it's the only answer. I am on medicine that makes me shake and when at high doses it made me forget what I was going to say and ruined my coordination.