Raine

I've fulfilled two of my sexual fantasies yesterday and this morning

I'm still excited about finding my Orgy album. I've bene playing Stitches in between every other song.

I fed Tjandra this morning. She ate 4 fish in a matter of minutes so I opened a can of tuna and as I was while I was taking it out the can she tried to jump out of the tank. or at least that's what i think she was trying to do. I love my fish but if she ever tried to take a bite out of my hand I fear I may have to eat Tjandra.

I called my mom, my great aunt, my dad and my step dad this morning and i did the one thing I'm definitely too old for: I threw a temper tantrum. I yelled, I threw a few objects around the room, i paced the room and i stubbed my foot against the wall and it hurt like hell.
I've learned two things from the experience: hanging up solves tons of problems, never yell at a woman who is quadruple your age and helps support your life style, never insult someone who doesn't know when they're being insulted. Waste of breath.
I've also come to the realization that marriage is something I should definitely avoid. If the concept didn't exist, I wouldn't have as many problems as I do now.
Needless to say, based on my aunt's tone of voice, if she could've she would've slapped me or hit me with a baseball bat or some other blunt object.
I talked to the cleaning lady from back when I was a kid and lived with my mom and she seems to be worried my that if my mom's health keeps failing her at the rate it has been this past year she might be out of job.
I don't know why she'd ask me about her employment status. And the last thing I need to hear is that my mom has been ill lately. I more or less told her that she'll always have a job with us. And should my mom no longer need her services she we'd definitely tell her in advance. I thought that was the proffesional thing to say. I dread calling the nanny my mom employed. I imagine she'll blow a gasket when she discovers that neither my brother or sister are home and that the place looks like my mom had a temper tantrum last night which she did while arguing with my stepdad.
My stepdad seems to have developed a new found hate for me. he called me last night as soon as I walked in the door. I hung up on him. And when I called him this morning he said I was to blame for all of my mom's problems. I find this really ironic since one of her biggest problems at the moment is the child he helped my mom create. He also yelled at me for taking my little bro home with me last night since they were too oblivious to take care of his needs which was provide dinner for him.
I'm pretty sure that if any sane person had a younger brother that lived with their parents and they saw that their brother was being neglected, they'd take them home with them for at least a night.
He also yelled at me for taking my younger sister as well and letting her sleep over at a friend's house.
I know i did the right thing if my great aunt and my mom agreed with me.

So yeah. That pretty much sums up the last 12 hours of my day.
Oh and rob took my bro out this morning and they came back with McDonald's pancakes and a Starbuck's cocnut banana frappaccino. I was so happy. My ideal breakfast.

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~ Friedrich Nietzsche

explosions-in-my-pants

my day = pms is hitting me harder then normal these days. Alright I don't know if one has to with the other but this is what happened to me so far today. Alright, i got up today and got on the phone because I couldn't get back to sleep.. so i did this a few times before actually getting out of bed for the day. So when i finally get up i get into the shower.. then I find myself a few minutes later unable to catch my breath... I can't breathe and I'm five seconds away from passing out.. I then force my body to jump out of the shower and open up the bathroom door.. get out and try to breathe.. only its really hard.. I then run to my room.. still unable to breathe right.. and i stop andjust try to slow down.. I finally start breathing then I go in my closet (its where I get dressed becase its a walk in one where all my dresses and clothes are.) so then i start to get like it again, only I'm starting to think its my mind in small areas getting like this.. but it doesn't make any sense becausee there's a french door from my closet to my bedroom.. so the space wouldn't seem so small..So i jump out of my closet into my room again and just think to myself I'm going to die.. and then with that thought just going through my mind... i start to breathe.. anyways I'm not sure if this has to do with pms or maybe in the back of my mind there's something going on causeing me to have a odd panic attack. so yea if someone can give me some ideas as what happened to me today then would be great..

oh and on to other news.. my boyfriend is coming to see me today for a few nights OMG! me so happy haha.. so I think my day from now on forward will be just fine.. I'm just worried about tomorrows shower.. ick

DearJenny

Shower then Work. And I gotta set up a Gynocologist appointment, and I've never been.....has anyone been and could give me some kind of idea whats gonna happen? I'm afraid. lol.

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Raine

depends on the nature of your problem
You can get tested for STD's
in which case they'll ask you to pee in a cup.

if you're going to find out how fertile you are, then they'll ask for family history and illness, they'll have you pee in a cup and that's about it.

if you think there's something wrong with your private area, they'll have you change out of your pants, put a gown on, and yes someone will stick a hand in your private area.

In all cases, most gyncologists do one of those mamamogram self tests things and will show you how to do it yourself.
They'll ask you about your sex history and if you do any drugs and or smoke. Some might ask you how often you had a drink and when you had your last drink.

If you go to be tested for any kind of disease, they will arrange for you to have some blood work done. If not that day, then sometime later on in the week.

If you think you're pregnant, they'll ask you to pee in a cup, probe around your stomach (touch it and whatever), they'll ask abuot the last time you had sex, and that's about it. If it turns out that you are pregnant I do believe they send your results to the radiology department (or whatever it's called) so you can have an ultrasound performed to see how far long you are. They may also do some blood work.

If it's for contraceptive information. They'll have you pee in a cup, ask you about how often you have sex, and sometimes if you're in a monogamous relationship. They'll ask for family history of disease, and ask about how often you drink and or smoke.

If you're going to be fitted for a cervical cap or diaphragm, they'll ask you to change out of your pants and into one of those gown things, and measure your cervix. They'll also tell you about how to put it in, remove it, and the risks you take by using it. They'll also tell you how often you should get it changed or come in to be resized.

If you're going because you're having irregular periods (or whatever) they'll have you change out of your pants and put on a gown. They'll have you pee in a cup. They might do bloodwork, and they'll ask some questions about your family history concerning diseases. They'll probe around your breasts and that's about it.

And that's all I can think of.
I think I've covered everything

My best advice is to not eat anything to sugary within an hour of seeing the doctor. By sugary I mean a stack of pancakes and half a container of syrup.

And there's nothing to fear from a gyncologist. Unless they save you have a cyst. (Which is pretty common) They'll make an appointment for you to see the surgery department, you'll have an ultrasound done and if the cyst is of a certain size or is a danger to you, they'll remove it. Not necessarily that day.

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A pair of powerful spectacles has sometimes sufficed to cure a person in love.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

DearJenny

^that was really helpful. Thanks.

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Alo

It was fun, but sucky, in a fun kind of way.

I went to Amsterdam, but there was a detour, so going there took 2 hours (normally It'd take 45 minutes). So I knew up front I wouldn't be able to make it to work (my first day on a new job >< ). So I had to call and say I couldn't come. And next I went to get some coffee, so we had our cup, and then my mum texted me to come home immediately. So I had been there for 10 minutes, and had to go back. I spent more time in the bus than awake and not in the bus eventually. ><' But the fun part was that I was with a great friend and we got some good laughs.

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I rocked my shoelaces untied

Alo

Now I'm wondering for which purpose you're going...



And @Raine: How do you know all that?

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I rocked my shoelaces untied

Raine

I've seen a gyncologist before

There's nothing wrong about it

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A pair of powerful spectacles has sometimes sufficed to cure a person in love.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche

DearJenny

I'm going for an irregularity problem(like I will sometimes skip five or six months at a time and I just had three in one month) but I looked into some things and it could suggest a fertility problem. Though I'm convinced its iron deficiency anemia based on other symptoms like dizziness and throwing up.


I just got over mono too. I'm sick or being effing sick!

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Raine

This may sound kinda wierd but have you changed the way you eat recently
like for the months that you skipped did you find you ate less than usual or exxercised more than usual

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A pair of powerful spectacles has sometimes sufficed to cure a person in love.

~ Friedrich Nietzsche