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02-08-2012 03:35 PM |
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Originally Posted by Tuna
(Post 1151785)
Good to see another person with social anxiety cause I'm pretty sure I have it from what you said. Another thing that helps me is to realize that not everyone's going to like you and you shouldn't live your life for other's approval or something like that. Like that guy over there might think I wallk funny, or that girl might think my hair looks stupid but who really gives a **** cause you can't change other people's minds (or their first impressions, at least) and chances are that even if they notice something about you (which they probably don't, I think I just fabricate most of it in my head) the thought doesn't cross their mind for more than a couple of seconds before they go back to caring about their own lives. I just like to say people who'd even judge these miniscule details aren't really worth my time anyways.
I like to think I'm getting better about it with age, but I still have those days where I want to do nothing but look at the ground, and basically get away from other people as fast as possible. That's low self-esteem for you.
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Mine wasn't really about wanting people to like me. It was more about wanting to "seem normal". The anxiety would make me overly self-conscious about not fidgeting, shaking, and sweating, which would then cause those symptoms and feed my anxiety in a negative feedback loop. I just didn't want people to think I was weird or crazy, which is a lot more of a judgmental scenario than whether someone doesn't like my haircut or something, to me. In most cases, it was particularly bad at job interviews, or being around new co-workers, bosses, etc, where things were actually at stake. I guess I got so used to it, it spread to normal every-day life and just became a subconscious reaction.
The problem was there seemed to be no way to rationalize away an irrational fear caused by a mental issue. You know it's irrational, but you can't control it.
Now days it's dramatically different. I don't know if I trained myself to respond differently to the irrational thoughts or what. I'm still more self-conscious than I consider to be normal, but I no longer let my mind run away with the irrational fears that come with it. But I think you're right about it getting better with age. As I've aged, I generally care less and less about how I'm perceived, so that helps things and I feel like I have a greater degree of control as a result.
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