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08-21-2011, 01:57 PM | #16831 (permalink) |
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Possibly one of the worst days of my life so far. I've been away from this site for some time and in this time I've finally admitted to myself that I want to be male. I'm not just bisexual, I'm transsexual.
So the problem for me is finding some way to tell my (somewhat homophobic and conservative) family about my decision to try and go for some sort of therapy and if I decide, full gender reassignment. Today I found the courage to tell the most liberal person in my family, my mom. Total disaster that was. She seemed to get REALLY angry and a LOT of shouting occured. I'm now scared and miserable.
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08-21-2011, 03:20 PM | #16833 (permalink) | |
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And yes, I live with family. I have nowhere else to go. :crying:
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08-21-2011, 03:27 PM | #16834 (permalink) | ||
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As far as the living situation, thats rough and I have no idea what I would do in your shoes
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08-21-2011, 04:46 PM | #16835 (permalink) | ||
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- Go to the local council and plead my case for getting social housing. Major problem with this is that a) nothing has actually happened to me as to create any sort of danger or volatile situation and b) chances are that without this, it'll be ages before I'll be offered any housing, and I can be pretty certain that it'll be a tiny bedsit in the middle of a crap estate somewhere. - Assuming that my mom, who lives seperately from me (I live with grandparents) is more accepting of the situation, I could possibly temporarily stay with her. But this isn't an ideal situation and I don't know how, when she finds out, what the reaction is going to be. - Put up and shut up until I can afford a place of my own and aren't reliant on my family as much. This isn't going to be anytime soon I think...and I don't think I can take it much longer. <----- I feel like this.
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08-22-2011, 04:26 AM | #16837 (permalink) |
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not a good day
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08-22-2011, 08:52 AM | #16838 (permalink) | |
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08-22-2011, 03:01 PM | #16839 (permalink) |
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I plan to do so. I'm sick and tired of playing pretend. I want to be male. Hell, in my own head I AM male.
Eh, I'm going to have a little rant today. Thanks to my wonderful Gov's cuts, the place I volunteer at has lost funding and so is shutting in less than a week. Thanks to these same cuts, the chances of me finding a new volunteer placement is close to nil because the volunteer placement centre you have to use for these placements has also been forced to close down large sections of its activities, including specialist volunteer placement.
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08-22-2011, 03:16 PM | #16840 (permalink) |
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So today I went shopping and got:
Some new shirts Some new trainers A new bag for school A couple of new albums that I've wanted for ages (Play by Moby and Cross by Justice if you care) It also represents a turning point for me, as using the excuse of 'it's for wearing in school' I've finally managed to buy some vaguely nice clothes without being ridiculed by my family.
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