I feel like when someone says they were "borderline stalking" someone, it's meant more in jest, as a way of saying, "I've been crushing on this girl for a long time, but been too scared to make a move - but it was a good excuse to hit up the library ;)"

Maybe I just assume the majority of people aren't total creepers.

I guess you could interpret it that way. I just always find it strange when someone offers up they are involved in a relationship and then said person persists after this info is offered up. I was involved with a girl years ago, who had to have me stop by her work and straighten this same type of mess up with a stalker, so I always find it a lil strange.

just got up feeling like ****.

I don't know why you bother typing that. It's not like I'm going to take a blind bit of notice of what you say. I've never said we're friends. All I've said is it's interesting that she's been nice, in fact nicer, now she knows I know she's got a b/f. It's beyond doubt that she knows I've got a serious crush on her. In fact it wouldn't surprise me if she's not thinking to herself that I love her and am in a situation where I can't stop thining about her. She must be aware that is the kind of terriotry I'm in and maybe she likes that and will leave bozo for me. It's not like she's going to go 'hey. I think you love me. I'm going to leave bozo for you' is it? She's not going to do that but if I ask her after getting more and more friendly with her then...In fact today was all about gauging her reaction to me after Mon when I went and lost my senses a bit after seeing her wearing a big ring I'd not seen beofre and aksin her if she'd got married. In that respect today was one major success!! She's been nicer than ever when I was sure she'd be pissed off with me for asking about the ring.

What? I've not even thought about that. Where's that come from? 'cause I'm not planning on harming him. If she doesn't leave him for me then I don't even want her and I certainly don't want to ever know who he is.

I sometimes don't go in for 3 weeks so she won't feel I'm stalking her. If I was going in more regularly then maybe she'd feel uncomfortable. I've realised a while back to be careful of that.

I haven't even really started trying to get her yet and if it becomes clear after I do that she's sticking with bozo then I'll just give up. Lot's of people have left people their with...happens all the time. No reason yet it won't happen in my situation...or her's or bozo's whichever way you want to look at it. She might even feel thrilled to find herself in a tug-of-love and not be sure which one of us she wants...game on!

Wow haha.

Worked out, wrote some ****, talked to a few friends. IDK if my plans tonight are gonna work out since it is about to pour.

flying pig...brotha, be realistic with yourself here. This isn't a movie and you aren't getting the girl. She's got a boyfriend and hasn't put out negative vibes towards you because you are her harmless friend. Your health situation is just an excuse you've made up in your head to justify why you never got with her. Just let it go. Think about her occasionally. Fap to her beach album pics of FB. But just let go brother.


Got a new job at a tanning salon. Yes, I am pale and working at a tanning place. But I get melanoma for free and i get to tan as much as I want, so I'm gonna be darker than Wes Snipes here soon. Still working at Dollar General, but working at the tanning place Fridays 1-6 for right now. Clean beds, take out trash, easy stuff. I saw my dreamgirl today and almost ****ed my pants so I feel like this was a good career move.

Haha my ex should get a job at a tanning place since she goes like crazy so she doesnt have any tan lines.
I could never work in one of those places even though I had an offer to lol. Plus I usually just hang outside and get it naturally.
Good luck with that bro.
****ing storming her soooooooooooo maybe no hanging out with friends.