Have you ever felt suicidal?

**Scarlett O'Hara** · 03-01-2013, 04:17 PM

I agree, I'm nowhere close to being as kind and compassionate as him.

~~Cuthbert~~ · 03-01-2013, 05:11 PM

Sometimes, I think everyone has, out of curiosity or with real intent. I have not with any real, genuine intent and I have never tried (and I don't think I will), and I'm not "brave" enough to try it anyway, but I did and have felt it was a solution to everything and I wouldn't have to worry anymore, constantly worrying, feel v. isolated and helpless because I have really bad social anxiety, it's embarrassing tbh

, and can't see how things will get better now.

FETCHER. · 03-01-2013, 06:02 PM

I've thought about how I would probably be better off dead a few times in my life but I don't think I'd take it as far as suicidal or anything. I've never thought about doing it or anything just basically wish something would happen to me to cause my death because I wouldn't have the balls to do it myself.

Mostly to do with general stresses of my life, money, drugs and alcohol or so I have found.

Trollheart · 03-01-2013, 06:35 PM

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FETCHER. · 03-01-2013, 06:46 PM

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I want you to be my uncle.

jackhammer · 03-01-2013, 07:42 PM

No.

I should imagine that 90% of people on here have been through some hellish crap that has given rise to question themselves and their place in life and whether this could be a way out and I understand that totally but personally?

Life is about ****ing and fighting and I refuse to let it beat me. There will always be extreme circumstances for people regarding justification and I am not here to judge but for me no way. Someone, somewhere needs me to be around and that is enough for me to keep going.

Trollheart · 03-01-2013, 08:21 PM

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I want you to be my uncle.

You're adopted as of now!

PoorOldPo · 03-01-2013, 08:25 PM

You Dubliners...and yere big heads.

ThePhanastasio · 03-01-2013, 10:42 PM

I have. I'll tell you, though, there's a huge difference in being really upset and overwhelmed and being like, "I don't want to be here anymore!" and just being completely...numb...for lack of a better word.

I've had both, but the latter is much scarier in retrospect. It's complete apathy, and it always feels like a completely calm and rational decision. The thought crosses the mind, and the reaction is simply, "Huh. That would be something, wouldn't it?"

The Batlord · 03-02-2013, 10:22 AM

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Well, if it makes you feel any better sometimes I wanna give you a swirly for being such a goody goody. Maybe steal your lunch money or pull your pants down in front of the whole school.

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I have. I'll tell you, though, there's a huge difference in being really upset and overwhelmed and being like, "I don't want to be here anymore!" and just being completely...numb...for lack of a better word.

I've had both, but the latter is much scarier in retrospect. It's complete apathy, and it always feels like a completely calm and rational decision. The thought crosses the mind, and the reaction is simply, "Huh. That would be something, wouldn't it?"

Yeah, despair blows, but when you become bored of despair, then you're truly ****ed. I miss despair. It was fun.

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I should imagine that 90% of people on here have been through some hellish crap that has given rise to question themselves and their place in life and whether this could be a way out and I understand that totally but personally?

My problem isn't so much that I've gone through "hellish crap," though my parenting wasn't exactly inspired, but whose is? My problem is that I haven't really gone through hellish crap. And any crap I did go through was caused by me already being a fruit loop. It's the fact that nothing's really happened to jolt me out of my apathy and make the world feel real that keeps me like I am. No deaths of anyone important to me. I've never even been to a funeral. Never seen any dead bodies. No molestation. Never really been physically abused. My mother isn't a drunk or an addict. No terrible car accidents. No near death experiences. Never really had one of those life changing role models. Nothing really ever happened in my life, so I was allowed to wallow in my own isolated little self indulgent world of numbness.

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~~Cuthbert~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Nov 2012 Location: The Black Country Posts: 8,827	Sometimes, I think everyone has, out of curiosity or with real intent. I have not with any real, genuine intent and I have never tried (and I don't think I will), and I'm not "brave" enough to try it anyway, but I did and have felt it was a solution to everything and I wouldn't have to worry anymore, constantly worrying, feel v. isolated and helpless because I have really bad social anxiety, it's embarrassing tbh , and can't see how things will get better now.