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02-28-2013, 10:47 PM | #12 (permalink) |
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Never. I'm not saying that everything's been all sunshine and rainbows in my life so far, but I've never contemplated offing myself. Suicide hurts your family and friends more and that grief can last a lifetime for them. The only perk to it is that you get to have complete control over your death - when it happens, how it happens, where, and why.
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02-28-2013, 10:55 PM | #13 (permalink) |
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Yes, and I still do. I've attempted suicide several times and I have lived in a constant state of suicidal fantasy and ideation since my first attempt when I was 12. It's a large part of who I am. My most recent breakdown/attempt was this past October, and it ended very dramatically but positively. I'm in therapy now and it's something I work on healing from every day.
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02-28-2013, 11:09 PM | #14 (permalink) | |
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I never was suicidal, but these days I'm slowly getting more and more like that. Life just kinda feels like a movie that really sucks. You don't really feel connected to it so the thought of killing yourself just doesn't seem radical like it would if you felt that you really thought that you had something to lose. It's not that I feel the urge to kill myself, so much as the idea is just there waiting to be thought about every now and again. Especially when you do something dumb. Say something awkward or do something that makes you feel like you're being a burden to someone, and you seriously think "****, I wish I was dead!" for about half a second. Like you could offer up your life to compensate for the inconvenience that you've caused.
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02-28-2013, 11:12 PM | #15 (permalink) | |
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Interestingly, although I've always been a little depressed, I never thought that life was just totally useless until I was older. When I was suicidal, I was very lonely and directionless. The feelings went away because I became less depressed for some reason. No specific reason, just a "time heals all wounds" kind of thing. More specifically, I think I had to become used to the fact that I had nobody to depend on and no safety net. That became liberating eventually and once I accepted it, the suicidal thoughts stopped.
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Give yourself 10 or 12 years before you make any decisions. Also learn how to drive and go somewhere, you recluse.
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03-01-2013, 01:37 AM | #20 (permalink) | |
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I'm not making any decisions. I figure I'm still years away from being miserable to actually start thinking seriously of suicide. Right now I'm just a tourist.
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