The Confessional Thread

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by Cheese

I dunno I guess a lot of it stems from the "one day they'll walk away so why bother" mantra i've adopted

I have 3 basic extreme fears in this world (in order of severity) :

1. Abandonment.
2. Dying in a car wreck.
3. Getting fat.

I'm paranoid and scared a lot of the time, but I think I'm coming around to the idea that what I've got is real, and he's not going to leave. He's going to be the one who's going to be a real man (unlike the selfish pieces of shit that came before). I've waited my whole life just to not be afraid of losing the one I love; it's about time someone did the right thing. (Ki, love you, sweetie - you're the best.)

[Cheese]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

I have 3 basic extreme fears in this world (in order of severity) :

1. Abandonment.
2. Dying in a car wreck.
3. Getting fat.

Can't say i have any major fears. I know I'll die alone. We all do. I don't fear it

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by Cheese

Can't say i have any major fears. I know I'll die alone. We all do. I don't fear it

I've come to accept the fact that I will die someday. What I have a hard time accepting is that the people I love will die (and will likely die before me). I could actually write quite a lot on how I came to accept my own mortality, and how I think of it almost every day. Ideally, I'd like to be cremated. I don't want to be left to rot in the ground, but I say that in consciousness - in reality, I won't be able to give a shit.

[Cheese]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

I've come to accept the fact that I will die someday. What I have a hard time accepting is that the people I love will die (and will likely die before me). I could actually write quite a lot on how I came to accept my own mortality, and how I think of it almost every day. Ideally, I'd like to be cremated. I don't want to be left to rot in the ground, but I say that in consciousness - in reality, I won't be able to give a shit.

I have a wish to be interred in my car, but it's illegal here

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by Cheese

I have a wish to be interred in my car, but it's illegal here

What do you mean by that, exactly?

[Cheese]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

What do you mean by that, exactly?

It's illegal to be buried in your car in this country

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by Cheese

It's illegal to be buried in your car in this country

I never knew there were countries where people could be buried in cars. Just ... literally ... buried? That's it? No embalming, no special anything, just throw the body in the car and bury it?

Originally Posted by Rjinn

Personally being fat isn't just the way I look. Fat fear can come from physical in-capabilities like loss of flexibility, fitness and exercise, difficulty walking, tiredness and fatigue and health. There's also not being able to wear clothes that you like. Personally pulling off style is a big thing appearance wise that I enjoy, not necessarily having the best body, but to look interesting and representing yourself individually (not exactly having to be different than everybody else either) instead of carbon copies from a magazine.

With me it's pretty much 100% how I look. I don't find myself to be attractive at all, so keeping thin is really all I've got. As long as I can still identify most of the bones in my hands and wrists (and fit my fingers around my wrist, fingertips touching) without having to strain, as long as I've got prominent collarbones, and I can still feel all my ribs and my hipbones; as long as my face remains gaunt I'm ok. I subconsciously 'check' or 'measure' just to make sure I'm still thin.

I hate my thighs; I hate my calves. I've been trying to figure out a way to whittle them down to nothing more than fatless twigs but I haven't figured out how to sort of put them into a state of atrophy (they're so muscular, it sickens me).

I'm a little neurotic.

[djchameleon]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

3. Getting fat.

lawl at that fear.

Did you get that fear from years of being force fed images of models growing up?

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by djchameleon

lawl at that fear.

Did you get that fear from years of being force fed images of models growing up?

Not at all.

I just have high standards for my figure.

[Rjinn]

Originally Posted by djchameleon

lawl at that fear.

Did you get that fear from years of being force fed images of models growing up?

Personally being fat isn't just the way I look. Fat fear can come from physical in-capabilities like loss of flexibility, fitness and exercise, difficulty walking, tiredness and fatigue and health. There's also not being able to wear clothes that you like. Personally pulling off style is a big thing appearance wise that I enjoy, not necessarily having the best body, but to look interesting and representing yourself individually (not exactly having to be different than everybody else either) instead of carbon copies from a magazine.