The Confessional Thread

~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ · 09-30-2010, 05:14 PM

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Originally Posted by downwardspiral

I want to be dead by 40 and I don't want a family of my own. I'm a complete head**** to myself and others, currently really into a girl who is madly into me too but I won't go there with her for some reason, I keep pushing her away and it's annoying me and evidently upsetting her a lot.. but I find it hard to care.

I make myself unsettled by how rubbish a person I actually am. The only friends I have are ones I've met on the internet because all of my 'real life' friends left me behind and I don't have any interest what so ever in anyone within my family despite how nice they are to me. I have and will never loathe a person as much as I do myself.

Don't be so hard on yourself, man! Maybe you're such an ass to your friends because you're an ass to yourself?

right-track · 09-30-2010, 05:14 PM

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Originally Posted by downwardspiral

I want to be dead by 40 and I don't want a family of my own.

The thing about having a family is, it actually gets in the way of wanting to be dead by 40.

You can look at that two ways.

downwardspiral · 09-30-2010, 05:19 PM

I was never an arse to my friends to be honest, I'd bend over backwards for them but they'd not do the same for me. We all had a massive falling out which just resulted in them not speaking to me any more because of some lies generated by someone else.

It's all in the past now but I'm still sore about it I guess.

Dr.Seussicide · 09-30-2010, 05:36 PM

My ultimate dream in life is actually really simple, and really cliche, but, it'd just be to have that quintessential idea of a family. I'd really like to have just 2 kids, maybe 3 at the most. Firstly a girl, Lydia and secondly a boy, Alexander. I actually countlessly daydream about this, and I always think that it's only at that point that I'd know the true satisfaction of living. I've never experienced that as yet... I always have temporary moments of happiness, but nothing sustaining, nothing lasting. I'm a complete romantic, just the guy that would probably do anything for that girl that I'd like to say that I'd love, with everything I could possibly offer her. I've only ever loved one girl, and I still do love that same person. A bit hard to stop isn't it? Maybe eventually it would subside... I'd actually really like to see a shrink as well, just to talk to someone about my life, what's bothering me. I'm hardly given the chance to do that. Image and reputation mean so much these days, but I'd really just like to say fuck all of that and be who I truly am. I guess everyone can admit to having those temporary relapses of depression..but maybe it's becoming too frequent...

**Scarlett O'Hara** · 09-30-2010, 05:42 PM

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Originally Posted by Spike*Spiegel

Fixed

Troll or not, it's fecking annoying.

Hollar BB!

If she wants to be respected (if she is not a troll) she should stop being so desperate.

right-track · 09-30-2010, 05:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Vanilla

Hollar BB!

If she wants to be respected (if she is not a troll) she should stop being so desperate.

...and full of shit!

**Scarlett O'Hara** · 09-30-2010, 05:47 PM

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Originally Posted by right-track

...and full of shit!

I thought I would chuck this in to coincide with your post:

Dayvan Cowboy · 09-30-2010, 05:49 PM

geez guys, quit picking on the newbie! I'm slowly helping her, you know. I've gotten her to like Battles and ATD-I and I'll work on the other stuff, too.

**Scarlett O'Hara** · 09-30-2010, 05:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Dayvan Cowboy

geez guys, quit picking on the newbie! I'm slowly helping her, you know. I've gotten her to like Battles and ATD-I and I'll work on the other stuff, too.

Can you get her to see a freaking therapist?

right-track · 09-30-2010, 05:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Dr.Seussicide

My ultimate dream in life is actually really simple, and really cliche, but, it'd just be to have that quintessential idea of a family. I'd really like to have just 2 kids, maybe 3 at the most. Firstly a girl, Lydia and secondly a boy, Alexander. I actually countlessly daydream about this, and I always think that it's only at that point that I'd know the true satisfaction of living. I've never experienced that as yet... I always have temporary moments of happiness, but nothing sustaining, nothing lasting. I'm a complete romantic, just the guy that would probably do anything for that girl that I'd like to say that I'd love, with everything I could possibly offer her. I've only ever loved one girl, and I still do love that same person. A bit hard to stop isn't it? Maybe eventually it would subside... I'd actually really like to see a shrink as well, just to talk to someone about my life, what's bothering me. I'm hardly given the chance to do that. Image and reputation mean so much these days, but I'd really just like to say fuck all of that and be who I truly am. I guess everyone can admit to having those temporary relapses of depression..but maybe it's becoming too frequent...

This post really bothers me.

09-30-2010, 05:19 PM	#43 (permalink)
downwardspiral Music Addict Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Liverpool, UK Posts: 734	I was never an arse to my friends to be honest, I'd bend over backwards for them but they'd not do the same for me. We all had a massive falling out which just resulted in them not speaking to me any more because of some lies generated by someone else. It's all in the past now but I'm still sore about it I guess. __________________

09-30-2010, 05:36 PM	#44 (permalink)
Dr.Seussicide FakingSuicideForApplause Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: I live in a van down by the river Posts: 1,365	My ultimate dream in life is actually really simple, and really cliche, but, it'd just be to have that quintessential idea of a family. I'd really like to have just 2 kids, maybe 3 at the most. Firstly a girl, Lydia and secondly a boy, Alexander. I actually countlessly daydream about this, and I always think that it's only at that point that I'd know the true satisfaction of living. I've never experienced that as yet... I always have temporary moments of happiness, but nothing sustaining, nothing lasting. I'm a complete romantic, just the guy that would probably do anything for that girl that I'd like to say that I'd love, with everything I could possibly offer her. I've only ever loved one girl, and I still do love that same person. A bit hard to stop isn't it? Maybe eventually it would subside... I'd actually really like to see a shrink as well, just to talk to someone about my life, what's bothering me. I'm hardly given the chance to do that. Image and reputation mean so much these days, but I'd really just like to say fuck all of that and be who I truly am. I guess everyone can admit to having those temporary relapses of depression..but maybe it's becoming too frequent... __________________ I'll stay if I ever could, and pick up your pieces babe, because there's never a perfect day. Don't fret, baby, we're simply growing And my darling, I wouldn't mind to die like this.

09-30-2010, 05:49 PM	#48 (permalink)
Dayvan Cowboy Basscadet Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Antarctica Posts: 1,258	geez guys, quit picking on the newbie! I'm slowly helping her, you know. I've gotten her to like Battles and ATD-I and I'll work on the other stuff, too.