I wanna shoot up.

Where's the tar junkies at?

I need to feel closer to death

Don't worry about it, we've all been there.

At the risk of being ridiculised, i'll share this honest confession.

Sometimes i feel invincible around here, Like i don't really matter here,
i try my best to be acknowledged around here, to try and participate in the threads and whatnot but i feel only a few ppl look my way, like DJ and Roxy at least i feel acknowledge with them.

idk sometimes i say something and no one cares and then another guy basically says the same thing and everybody responds to him

And it's not i want alot of attention i just want to feel acknowledged around here, believe it or not i have alot of respect for some members here and i feel like yelling to them "Notice me Senpai!!" but im afraid to do it.

But i can't blame MB for this, You all seem to be besties and talk with each other no problem, so the problem must be me, either ppl don't really know me enough yet or they don't care. (im guessing the 2nd one)

maybe im being over dramatic (as usual) but idk if i'll ever feel truly accepted here.

I get the same problem dude, me saying something and getting no response while someone else says the same **** and practically gets a trophy. If it means anything, you are one of my favorite people!

You need to stop caring what other people think. Seriously, what they think of you really doesn't matter in the slightest, so don't let it get to you.

Aww bb, you're not ignored. You are quite outgoing and you seem to not be bothered what others say, well, until now. Unfortunately forums can be like a snake pit sometimes!

Truthfully BF seems like a cool enough dude he doesn't actually care THAT much, he's more calling people out and kinda saying hey... I notice you ignoring me. Rude *******s.

Yes, you are being over dramatic. I feel like you need to see this. Apply it to online life and take it with you into real life as well.

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-nDRdKtKh-f...r+emotions.png

You are 30 right? It's a good life lesson to learn.

Confession: I'm perfect

@Carpe

Im glad you can relate, i think that's all i wanted to hear.
And likewise, you're one of my fav ppl as well. :)

@Vanilla & Tristesse & Dj

appreciate your comment as well.
when i wrote this i was feeling down, i think i wanted some sense of validation and acceptance from this community.

But this is something i know i have to earn around here, i can't expect ppl to know me if i barely post.

This is why i don't blame MB and blame myself, and even though i shared this insecurity im gonna keep trying to relate to ppl here because i wanna fit in here cause i think this is a great forum.

i used my post to vent a personal frustration i feel of wanting to belong here cause i don't wanna be a stranger in the party, ya know? that's all.