its not like i killed someone,...but

savannah · 12-12-2009, 09:20 PM

i've recently faced, and have been forced to face some of my past transgressions

its been a pretty rough look in the mirror, and while i'm not ready to completely get into what is going on,....but i didnt kill anyone,....i have hurt some people, i have done some very self destructive things, i've been untrustworthy

and its hard
i feel selfish crying over it,...crying over things i've done and how they've effected me
i feel selfish that its is later, rather than sooner, i worry about the effect i have had on other people

my question to you is,....

once a bad person, always a bad person?

Arya Stark · 12-12-2009, 09:37 PM

I think once you can take responsibility for it, you can take control of it.
You may not have been good before, but if you want to change it, you can.

NSW · 12-12-2009, 09:43 PM

I wish I could offer some fantastically wonderful advice, but I really can't, as I'm kinda going through the same thing right now. I almost broke down in the vitamin aisle at the grocery the other day, looking at the centrum and thinking about something stupid I said to my husband.

but anyway, the one thing I can say is that no one has to be a bad person. and just because you did bad things in the past doesn't mean you were ever a bad person. it just means you're imperfect like the rest of us.

Thrice · 12-12-2009, 09:46 PM

Pee Em sucka!

Neapolitan · 12-12-2009, 10:17 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by savannah

i feel selfish crying over it,...crying over things i've done and how they've effected me
i feel selfish that its is later, rather than sooner, i worry about the effect i have had on other people

my question to you is,....

once a bad person, always a bad person?

"It's not where you come from but where you are going." Everyone has a selfish past and when they grow as a person they become less selfish and more wise. Don't judge yourself for crying, that is part of the healing process. So you should not consider yourself a bad person.

savannah · 12-12-2009, 11:01 PM

thanks guys,...
and thank you wifey

i've calmed down a bit now
thank gawd i live in a town with lots of short bridges, with my luck i would just mame myself
and then i would be depressed AND disfigured

Freebase Dali · 12-13-2009, 12:46 AM

Goddamn, woman... Move to New York or something.
This southern life you're black holing is doing you more harm than good.

TheBig3 · 12-13-2009, 08:37 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Freebase Dali

Goddamn, woman... Move to New York or something.
This southern life you're black holing is doing you more harm than good.

I generally think Dali posts drunk. But this time I'd agree with him. Though I'd advocate for everyone to live in a big city.

**Janszoon** · 12-13-2009, 10:16 AM

Emo threads FTW.

savannah · 12-13-2009, 10:18 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Janszoon

Emo threads FTW.

thank you alex

sorry i freaked out everyone
i'll be normal in a day or two

and no, i aint movein to NYC

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savannah afrocentric Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: texas Posts: 753	its not like i killed someone,...but i've recently faced, and have been forced to face some of my past transgressions its been a pretty rough look in the mirror, and while i'm not ready to completely get into what is going on,....but i didnt kill anyone,....i have hurt some people, i have done some very self destructive things, i've been untrustworthy and its hard i feel selfish crying over it,...crying over things i've done and how they've effected me i feel selfish that its is later, rather than sooner, i worry about the effect i have had on other people my question to you is,.... once a bad person, always a bad person? __________________ i changed my mind; i changed my mind;now i'm feeling different all that time, wasted i wish i was a little more delicate i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my name was clementine - sarah jaffe

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NSW Bigger and Better Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Texas girl living in the UK Posts: 2,596	I wish I could offer some fantastically wonderful advice, but I really can't, as I'm kinda going through the same thing right now. I almost broke down in the vitamin aisle at the grocery the other day, looking at the centrum and thinking about something stupid I said to my husband. but anyway, the one thing I can say is that no one has to be a bad person. and just because you did bad things in the past doesn't mean you were ever a bad person. it just means you're imperfect like the rest of us. __________________ Hi.

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savannah afrocentric Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: texas Posts: 753	thanks guys,... and thank you wifey i've calmed down a bit now thank gawd i live in a town with lots of short bridges, with my luck i would just mame myself and then i would be depressed AND disfigured __________________ i changed my mind; i changed my mind;now i'm feeling different all that time, wasted i wish i was a little more delicate i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my i wish my name was clementine - sarah jaffe

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Freebase Dali Partying on the inside Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 5,584	Goddamn, woman... Move to New York or something. This southern life you're black holing is doing you more harm than good. __________________

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