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Originally Posted by Freebase Dali (Post 783695)

Goddamn, woman... Move to New York or something.
This southern life you're black holing is doing you more harm than good.

I generally think Dali posts drunk. But this time I'd agree with him. Though I'd advocate for everyone to live in a big city.

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Originally Posted by Janszoon (Post 783786)

Emo threads FTW.

thank you alex

sorry i freaked out everyone
i'll be normal in a day or two

and no, i aint movein to NYC

I always found that yoga and meditation and such work wonders when one is feeling like you are. That's up to you though. Don't be too hard on yourself - you seem like a nice person!

You won't be the first and you won't be the last, life is nothing without good and bad and all those (oh so true) cliches.

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Originally Posted by savannah (Post 783619)

i've recently faced, and have been forced to face some of my past transgressions

its been a pretty rough look in the mirror, and while i'm not ready to completely get into what is going on,....but i didnt kill anyone,....i have hurt some people, i have done some very self destructive things, i've been untrustworthy

and its hard
i feel selfish crying over it,...crying over things i've done and how they've effected me
i feel selfish that its is later, rather than sooner, i worry about the effect i have had on other people

my question to you is,....

once a bad person, always a bad person?

No point in crying over spilt milk. What's done is done. There is always room for second chances. They don't come without a lot of effort and commitment, and to be honest, I've been through something similar. I constantly was trying to meet the expectations of my boyfriend who wanted me to tell him what I was doing all the time, get his permission to be around guys, to text back straight away etc. I found it too hard because that's not me. I am too independent. So after many a fight, we've just broken up for good.

My advice to you is just apologise and be honest to those you've hurt, tell them how it's made you feel and leave it there. All you can do now is move on and not repeat the same mistakes. Also a little kiss-ass never goes a stray.

Just make sure you look at all the bad things you've done as the past, and learn from your mistakes so it won't happen again. We all do stupid **** sometimes. If you were truly a bad person, you wouldn't be reflecting on what you've done and feeling guilty at all. I've been through all that though and I gotta admit, it is not enjoyable by any means.

Am I the only one with the balls to ask?

What have you done, Savannah?

If you question whether you are good or not, I think that this means that you are not a bad person

That's a pretty forgiving criteria.