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12-15-2014, 07:13 PM | #17541 (permalink) | ||
Maelian
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yesterday I was alright. I was productive. I even laughed and smiled most of the day. today I couldn't get out of bed until... about 5 o'clock. I managed to eat a little and do the dishes. sometimes during the week, it's really difficult for me to get out of bed. It's difficult for me to maintain energy. Caffeine doesn't always help. It improves my mental state for a couple of hours, at least to the point where I'm productive, but some days I just can't deal with myself anymore for some reason. but I get out of bed because it makes me money. there's little else that tempting or motivating in a basic way. Not every day is like that. Sometimes a couple days pass and I'm ok, I can deal, I can talk to people, I'm not bothered by literally every ****ing nuance or seemingly rude glance. I don't think about things I should have forgotten. I wish I felt like that every day, and I do try!! I try to keep my wits. I try so hard to push myself into whatever might make me happy for a few minutes but sometimes I find it more productive to cry for a while or sleep as long as possible. strangely I have enough control over myself to not drink or take any strange medicine when I'm sad because I know it'll only make me worse. yeah, nothing more "lucky" than telling yourself to go take a shower for 7 hours and only being able to look at yourself in the mirror for a few seconds before deciding you just want to go back to bed.
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12-15-2014, 07:52 PM | #17543 (permalink) | |
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Oh, man. That's the stuff.
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12-15-2014, 07:55 PM | #17544 (permalink) |
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i tried to make it clear i wasn't saying to snap out of it. sorry if i made it worse. i'm not saying i don't feel bad for depressed people. i was just saying depressed people confuse me. i don't really have any answers for them cause i know most people who are depressed have told me the side effects for the drugs you can take aren't worth it.
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12-15-2014, 08:07 PM | #17545 (permalink) | |
Maelian
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psych meds have always been unkind to me, though I've been known to have a really good time with xanax.
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12-15-2014, 08:07 PM | #17546 (permalink) | ||
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Even talking to people just as screwed up as you doesn't really help. Neither of you are coming to any revelations, you're not saying anything the other doesn't already know, and it's not like you can both combine your uselessness into one functional human being. All you have are two people who are now aware that their new friend will be just as unreliable as themselves. And generally speaking, these "trauma bonding" conversations between two depressives, where they just talk about how ****ty they feel on a regular basis, are just about comparing scars rather than meaningful human connection, and often one-upping each other as to who is more worthy of pity, since depression goes hand in hand with self-absorption.
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12-15-2014, 08:50 PM | #17548 (permalink) |
Maelian
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Batlord seems more the manic depressive type.
Shit, I think I'm more manic depressive than anything. When I'm up, I'm way way way up. I'm productive, charismatic, in love with the entire world, ready for anything. When I'm down, I almost wish I was dead. It's like an insane crash from a terribly wonderful drug.
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12-15-2014, 09:11 PM | #17549 (permalink) |
Dude... What?
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I have a cankersore and I'm not drunk enough for the cognac to not burn the **** out of my lip on the way down.
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12-15-2014, 09:17 PM | #17550 (permalink) |
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Depression runs deeply through my dad's side of the family. I haven't struggled with it yet, but it's only a matter of time. I come from a long line of black sheep.
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