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ladyislingering · 11-22-2014, 06:46 PM

UGH my anxiety is fucking terrible today.

~~John Wilkes Booth~~ · 11-22-2014, 07:04 PM

i'm pretty sure i actually am going to get myself fired. i'm sure people here noticed i'm kind of an ******* online. but irl usually i wear a mask in public to keep up an image. but i got this temp job where even the bosses crack perverted jokes and love to talk **** to each other and they encouraged me to come out of my shell a little. so i tried doing that cause there are a few people there i can actually talk to and understand and i guess it gave me confidence to be myself.

so i started talking **** back to them. i guess sometimes i have a hard time distinguishing whats mean and what's just good fun. so they might say a dumb joke to me like you have some indian (native american) in you right? yea i bet you had about 12 inches in you last night huh huh huh etc. but then when i talk **** back i basically just point out real character flaws or call them slow or make fun of the dumb **** they say. and now i'm the ******* and i'm arrogant etc etc. so i tried correcting that by not talking **** to people anymore. but now i have a target on my back and people pinpoint me even when i'm not causing any problems. i've basically been having a really hard time learning not to say anything back when they keep coming over to criticize me. and basically it's starting to look like insubordination. the boss keeps getting complaints about me even though i haven't really been doing anything anymore.

i know it's a petty problem and it seems easy to correct but i have a really hard time taking random **** from people on top of working a boring job for 12 hours straight. something in me always finds the wrong **** to say. i'll be annoyed at myself more than anything if i get fired over this petty bull****.

GuD · 11-22-2014, 07:57 PM

sounds like you just need a better job working with people who operate more at your speed. your coworkers sound dumb as hell.

~~John Wilkes Booth~~ · 11-22-2014, 08:05 PM

yea but i need this job to raise money for a car to get transport to that type of job. i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere at the moment.

The Batlord · 11-22-2014, 09:30 PM

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Originally Posted by John Wilkes Booth

i'm pretty sure i actually am going to get myself fired. i'm sure people here noticed i'm kind of an ******* online. but irl usually i wear a mask in public to keep up an image. but i got this temp job where even the bosses crack perverted jokes and love to talk **** to each other and they encouraged me to come out of my shell a little. so i tried doing that cause there are a few people there i can actually talk to and understand and i guess it gave me confidence to be myself.

so i started talking **** back to them. i guess sometimes i have a hard time distinguishing whats mean and what's just good fun. so they might say a dumb joke to me like you have some indian (native american) in you right? yea i bet you had about 12 inches in you last night huh huh huh etc. but then when i talk **** back i basically just point out real character flaws or call them slow or make fun of the dumb **** they say. and now i'm the ******* and i'm arrogant etc etc. so i tried correcting that by not talking **** to people anymore. but now i have a target on my back and people pinpoint me even when i'm not causing any problems. i've basically been having a really hard time learning not to say anything back when they keep coming over to criticize me. and basically it's starting to look like insubordination. the boss keeps getting complaints about me even though i haven't really been doing anything anymore.

i know it's a petty problem and it seems easy to correct but i have a really hard time taking random **** from people on top of working a boring job for 12 hours straight. something in me always finds the wrong **** to say. i'll be annoyed at myself more than anything if i get fired over this petty bull****.

I've had that same problem at work. Luckily, I'm so ridiculous pretty much all the time that it's obvious that I'm just being a clown, whereas somebody else might get knocked the **** out. That's right, folks, it's not just an online persona. I really am like this in real life.

ladyislingering · 11-22-2014, 09:31 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

I've had that same problem at work. Luckily, I'm so ridiculous pretty much all the time that it's obvious that I'm just being a clown, whereas somebody else might get knocked the **** out. That's right, folks, it's not just an online persona. I really am like this in real life.

the people I work with are beginning to understand that I have a difficult sense of humor. it's hard to tell when I'm joking about something because I struggle with permanent bitchy resting face, so one must only assume that I'm pissed off like 90% of the time.

but some people get it.

they understand that if I call them a brat or a hooligan, I'm only kidding and I adore them.

The Batlord · 11-22-2014, 09:51 PM

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Originally Posted by ladyislingering

the people I work with are beginning to understand that I have a difficult sense of humor. it's hard to tell when I'm joking about something because I struggle with permanent bitchy resting face, so one must only assume that I'm pissed off like 90% of the time.

but some people get it.

they understand that if I call them a brat or a hooligan, I'm only kidding and I adore them.

I had people who were convinced that sometimes I didn't even know what I was saying, cause I'd just run off at the mouth almost constantly with the most outrageously insulting nonsense. They were half-right too.

ladyislingering · 11-22-2014, 10:02 PM

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Originally Posted by The Batlord

I had people who were convinced that sometimes I didn't even know what I was saying, cause I'd just run off at the mouth almost constantly with the most outrageously insulting nonsense. They were half-right too.

same.

my brain is so fried from the shit I've done to it, I'm not even completely sure that my everyday life is true reality.

The Batlord · 11-22-2014, 11:34 PM

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Originally Posted by ladyislingering

same.

my brain is so fried from the shit I've done to it, I'm not even completely sure that my everyday life is true reality.

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ladyislingering · 11-22-2014, 11:47 PM

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been struggling with that shit all my life, man.

sometimes I get so upset because I think I might be dreaming.

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11-22-2014, 06:46 PM	#17131 (permalink)
ladyislingering Maelian Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Seattle Posts: 695	UGH my anxiety is fucking terrible today. __________________ You and I, We were born to die.

11-22-2014, 07:57 PM	#17133 (permalink)
GuD Dude... What? Join Date: Oct 2013 Posts: 1,322	sounds like you just need a better job working with people who operate more at your speed. your coworkers sound dumb as hell. __________________ I spit bullets in my feet Every time I speak So I write instead And still people want me dead ~msc

11-22-2014, 07:04 PM	#17132 (permalink)
~~John Wilkes Booth~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Jul 2013 Posts: 2,235	i'm pretty sure i actually am going to get myself fired. i'm sure people here noticed i'm kind of an ***** online. but irl usually i wear a mask in public to keep up an image. but i got this temp job where even the bosses crack perverted jokes and love to talk to each other and they encouraged me to come out of my shell a little. so i tried doing that cause there are a few people there i can actually talk to and understand and i guess it gave me confidence to be myself. so i started talking back to them. i guess sometimes i have a hard time distinguishing whats mean and what's just good fun. so they might say a dumb joke to me like you have some indian (native american) in you right? yea i bet you had about 12 inches in you last night huh huh huh etc. but then when i talk back i basically just point out real character flaws or call them slow or make fun of the dumb they say. and now i'm the *** and i'm arrogant etc etc. so i tried correcting that by not talking to people anymore. but now i have a target on my back and people pinpoint me even when i'm not causing any problems. i've basically been having a really hard time learning not to say anything back when they keep coming over to criticize me. and basically it's starting to look like insubordination. the boss keeps getting complaints about me even though i haven't really been doing anything anymore. i know it's a petty problem and it seems easy to correct but i have a really hard time taking random from people on top of working a boring job for 12 hours straight. something in me always finds the wrong to say. i'll be annoyed at myself more than anything if i get fired over this petty bull**.

11-22-2014, 08:05 PM	#17134 (permalink)
~~John Wilkes Booth~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Jul 2013 Posts: 2,235	yea but i need this job to raise money for a car to get transport to that type of job. i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere at the moment.