idt they cater but they are pretty busy. swarmed by the time i make it over there, prepping and all that. idk, im prolly just bein my usual irrationally paranoid self and thinkin there's more goin on than them just being busy.

Pfft, I get borderline homicidal when I'm waiting for transport that's 10 minutes late. It's a pain in the ass waiting on other people, especially when you've no idea what's going on.

by all counts I have the perfect existence, and it'd be nice if I wasn't so tired. even eating is a chore. it's never "what should I have for dinner" anymore - now it's like "shit, I have to do this again".

when did things get so tedious and exhausting?? good lord. it's so irritating. my body needs to get its act together. I feel superfine in every way apart from dying for a nap 24/7 and feeling sick to my stomach regardless of how much medicine I take to keep it in check. Must be the heat. I've never been so sick in my entire life.

Girl, try chronic pain for the 8 years, horrible IBS symptoms (currently my bowels is packed to the brim because of the medication I'm on but that means I need to take more medication to fix it). I got some disgusting stuff that you take a spoonful of in a drink so I can pump up natural fibre so I can soon **** bricks. And then I have daily abdomen pain from my bowels and endometrosis that never ****s off without some strong pain relievers. I also have general anxiety disorder so when I'm in bad pain with constipation and can't make it to class my mind panics and worries about me being forced to stop my study because I'm taking so long to do it. I like have mini break downs and then can't get to sleep or wake up at 5am and never getting to sleep again.

agh.

I've been thinking about this girl, Aya, who I used to be friends with before crushin out on her when I knew she wasn't interested. Haven't seen her in about 2 years I think? idk. S'been runnin through my mind all day though- wondering what she's been up to, if she's still in SF, if she still has the same pet rats or any new piercings or tats. She was like, the only person that was nice to me in high school. Wanna try and get in touch but have no idea how or if it's even a good idea.

HEY! 'Member me? The drunk person that totally acted like a prick a couple years ago? HOW YA BEEN?! SORRY ABOUT THAT!

I mean, s'been a while. She can't still be mad. I hope.

Don't most people use facebook to reconnect? I think that would be the least creepy way. It's not like you can find someone you know and get her contact info to reach out. That would be a huge turn-off i'd imagine.

naw, we're both pretty anti-social media.

She's not on, I checked... and still feel creepy.

anti social media.

Such a silly thing to be.

Even if you were able to re-connect with her. It sounds like it would be a hella awkward first encounter.

Meh, FB just ain't for everyone.

But yeah... it probs would be pretty awkward. I mean it's not like I've been holding a torch for her this whole time but it was pretty ugly the last time we talked. Bleh.

****ing Ants!

Ima take a damn flame thrower to this place.

werd