Originally Posted by jr.
I haven't touched alcohol for over 3 1/2 years. And yes, to quell any speculation, I am an alcoholic. The day I hit another car with mine was the day I realized I could actually hurt someone else besides myself. I haven't had a drop since.
I miss it sometimes. Not getting drunk, mind you, but the activity of drinking. It was something to do. I drank by myself, of course. I am solitary by nature, that hasn't changed. That's why I like it here at MB. Not to upset anyone, but this is where I can speak to people on my own terms. No one can invade my space, unless I choose to let them.
That's why I don't own a cell phone. Where I am and what I'm doing is my business, and it offends me to think someone can just call me, where ever I might be, whether I want them to or not.
Anyway, about the drinking, I went to AA for about six months. It got to where I couldn't stand it. The same people with the same complaints, day in and day out. "Oh, I wanted to drink so bad today!". They were sober, but still worshipping alcohol, you know? I was like, when are you going to take your life back?
When I quit, I was an alcoholic first and foremost. But, there comes a point where you have to stop letting alcohol control who you are. I evolved from alcoholic, into father, husband, son, brother, coworker, and, oh yeah, I also can't drink because once I start, I can't stop.
You see what I mean? You have to be a person first eventually, or you will live your life in the most miserable way possible: an alcoholic that can't think of anything else but the fact that they can't drink.
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