alliteration

trust me Andrew, its really nothing personal. but you have to understand my frustrations. you know i don't think any of you guys are *******s, and i clearly never said that. when it comes down to it, like i said **** never goes well for us. ever since we've been a "band" nothing has ever gone our way. hell, we still don't have a drummer. there has never been any real support or anything there for us, so forgive me for being extremely disenchanted with the current state of things. evan and i have been writing together for years, its been something close and personal to us, and to be honest, all we've really ever wanted to do was share that with people. honestly, i don't know if its worth it though. its clear we're not welcome in k-zoo anymore, at least it doesnt seem like it, and i'm not sure why. it seemed like Russ liked us well enough, then one day, he acts like he doesn't know us. and to be honest, i never got the feeling that you guys sincerely wanted to have us out to play shows. i know we do a lot of talking, and a lot of it, you know, gets thrown out there and thats just that. i know that, and you know that. it just seems that we're quite invisible in this tiny scene. whatever. i don't know if i have to promote more on myspace, beg people all over for shows, or comment a lot and make friends on myspace, i honestly have no idea. i didn't think that i would have to kiss people's asses so much just to get a place to play. i'm not good at that at all, nor am i good at false friendships, so there's that. i can't pretend to be best friends with some band simply because we're both DIY. if thats what it takes, then i guess we won't be playing anymore shows. i am simply frustrated at the fact that you guys have been planning a few of these shows for awhile (according to myspace) but this is the first i've heard of you guys considering us to play.

you're right, i know that you never intended to slight us. i get it. sometimes though, after **** goes bad for so long, you start to wonder if anyone has your back. it just doesn't feel that way. perhaps i should've been up front with you about this. but oh well, i never once thought of calling you up to say anything about this, because i honestly never thought of it. my fault. i'm not the most personal of people out there, and even though the internet is a ****ty medium, for some reason i felt a tad bit more comfortable here. i apologize, its a bad place to bring out the claws. but i would've been less frustrated if you had just said then what you are saying now. if you just said, "hey, we can't do a lot of bands, and these are the reasons" that would be fine. i understand that. but simply saying we don't fit in and just inviting us on facebook to come and hang just seemed odd to me. i know you guys and Wolve go way back, and I understand how that goes, but when you talk about not fitting in or appealing to a certain crowd, i had no idea we were that out there.

and i know you guys have always been friendly towards us, and i feel like we have been back. you guys are good dudes and fun to hang out with. my purpose was not to say anything bad about you guys as a band or as people. my intent was purely to express my distaste at the fact that it seems we just have **** luck and nothing works out. you have my sincerest apologies if you feel i offended you as people or a band. that was not my intent. i cannot apologize for my frustration, only how i carried it out.

also, shows are up in the air for us, we have one of the 7th with Mans here in Lansing, but who knows what will happen there. This Is Ours fest resulted in severe injuries for our instruments, and we both have non-functioning equipment at the present. Oh well.