Tekron

whats the best thing to do at a rediculous time at night where you can't talk to anyone, you can't write music/dont want to, and u just can't do anything but wish there was some one there with you. I always want some one just to lie next to me in bed just to hold, and because i did it so long with one of my friends who ive previously talked about for so long, just lyed down and talked to for hours on end, i can't get around it. I need some one there, holding a pillow, listening to the almighty Chris from STD, and doing other things just doesn't work. and i cant sleep; its like torture. seriously am i the only one that feels this way? i ask you all because this is "emo", and emo kids will generally think in a similar way towards daily life, and problems and stuff.

i cant go on like this, feeling lonely and talking to a few people online who im sorta close to and then going to bed and just feeling like ****. it sucks so much. when i was depressed i used to cry myself to sleep. now i dont usually cry, but i cant sleep. BTW - i am not depressed. i get sad sometimes, just like everyone else. i was depressed a few months ago for a number of years., yes years my life sucked for some time.