Sansa Stark

1. I have, at last count, 23 tattoos. Four of them are for my ex-fiancee, who thinks because I have not bothered to cover them that I still hold a torch for him. He actually bullied me into them to prove that I was faithful. Ooooops.

2. A huge chunk of my life is concealing my various mental illnesses, disorders, and idiosyncrasies. I don't care about people thinking I'm crazy, I cannot stand pity or being used as inspiration porn to people who haven't been through the same horrible shit I have.

3. My favourite thing about myself is my empathetic nature, however there are two things (loneliness and self loathing) that I can't empathise with because I've never felt either, and it makes me feel guilty.

4. I like pain and having bruises,cuts, and other marks on my body.

5. I have really horrible eyesight

6. Dudes treat me like I am a living Manic Pixie Dream Girl trope.

7. I define myself as queer but I only do that for plebes. My actual identity is thus: I am a high femme presenting agender pansexual who is sexually inclined toward masculine but androgynous people of varied genders, but more romantically inclined to those who are female identified. I am almost incapable of having romantic feelings for a man. Except for a very special one. I'm completely genderless myself though, I don't even feel that my body is gendered which is strange as fuck to most genderqueer people since most experience bodily dysphoria, especially those who are AFAB (assigned female at birth) like myself.

8. I'm going back to school in the fall

9. I have a really terrible sense of humour, but I think of my persona as the biggest joke there is.

10. I always play a persona publicly, not because I'm afraid to be myself, but it's amusing to see how people react to the exaggerated caricature of myself that I portray. It also serves as a filter for people that don't deserve to see the deeper parts of my personality. Shallowness is such a turn off.

11. I once gave myself a black eye last year to see if anyone would even notice. I did it with a Beauty and the Beast light up mirror

12. This is the longest I've gone without a boyfriend since I was about 13/14

13. I also once tried to cut my face off when I was 18/19

14. I fucking hate touching money

15. Cruelty comes disturbingly easy to me, I find someone's weak spots and exploit them without thinking when I'm hurt. I wish I wouldn't do this, sometimes. Other times I don't feel bad for it, because that person is a cunt.

16. My new middle name is Matilda

17. I'm torn between choosing a traditional, married (to a dude)/children/career life or moving to some rando field in Europe and starting a commune and having a Boston marriage with any (or all) of my female friends.

18. I never answer my phone when people call it

19. I don't know why I brought this thread back

20. I managed to not have to be hospitalised, put in rehab or detox, or in the psych ward so far this year. Yay!

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