NumberNine, your list made me think of a lot of questions and comments for you:

I relate to that somewhat. I never cared to wear dresses from around 2nd grade on, though I did wear some to school dances. I liked wearing shorts and my favorite shirt with a tiger on it...or one with seagulls. Do you dislike dresses because you associate them with weakness and vulnerability...or simply because you see them "costumes" rather than just functional clothing?

Why could you only attend 2 days a week?

So are your mum and aunts always buying you black clothes and why?

You might surprise yourself. When you're older you really may feel completely differently and realize that the tough times of youthful introspection helped you understand yourself enough to take great care with another person.

Hmm. This is interesting, Number9. Have you tried intentionally fighting the awkwardness by hugging people when you are not drunk? The more you do something, the easier it is supposed to get.

You sound like a connoisseur, despite what you say about yourself. When I'm in the car I just turn on the radio...but actually, I usually don't even do that, because I dislike most of the music played!

Smoking. What caused you to start? What might inspire you to quit?

You have fear of failure and thus a fear of trying. This is very common. Remember, it really doesn't matter if someone thinks you are a bad director. First of all, there are lots of directors whom people think are bad. Second of all, nothing has to be "perfect." What is "perfect" anyway? Also, if everyone comes into film-making school knowing how to make "good" movies, then there really wouldn't be a point to having a film school at all. So, I assume people there expect movies to start off kind of rough.

This is one of the first things I remember about you, Number9, after you joined MB...that you see yourself as asexual. I felt an instant affinity for you since I mostly feel gender neutral.

You say your friends see you as asexual. By asexual do you mean gender neutral OR do you mean having no sexual feelings? My guess is someone you know personally views you as a sexual being!

Jesus, Angelica! This was supposed to be fun. You've dissected her entire life. This is the first time I've become annoyed with you. :(

I'll do my best to answer :p:

It makes me feel vulnerable, like I'm exposed. I feel a need to hide myself. I hate being the person that is attracting the attention.
I feel the same way when wearing light colours, that's why I only wear black.

It was just too boring, and sometimes plainly offensive. I kept correcting the teachers, and they kept stuttering.
The last confrontation I remember in school, was when our Philosophy teacher, was telling us that animal lives have no meaning to humans. He felt that if a dog is in danger, no human will care if he dies. So, that was one of those offensive moments.
Plus, a Catholic School is not the greatest place to be, for an Atheist.

They used to buy me all colours, but I only used to wear the black items. So now, they mostly buy me black clothes.

I might...

Well people do hug me, so I just try to "hug" them back. I don't think I'm doing it right.

I'm just picky.

It just gives me a buzz, instead of getting drunk between classes.
I don't have to smoke, as sometimes I just stop for 2 weeks, just cause I don't feel like it. So I don't think there is any kind of "quitting" involved. I just have my phases. It used to be books and hookahs, then movies , now it's music and ciggies. Will see what'll happen next year.

I don't care what other people think. I'm scared that I realise myself, that I'm one of the bad directors.

I'm gender neutral, but my friends feel I'm asexual.
Though, I'm not far from being asexual. It also comes in phases.

I'd love to give you one of my hugs. I've been told they're good. Only thing is... Large heigh differences cause awkward hugs, I can't hug small people. So you'd have to like, stand up a kerb or something before I gave you one. :D

lol, another problem that adds to the awkwardness. :p:
Though my short height, is one of the main hugging attractions. They all feel that I'm a little baby that should be hugged and have its cheeks squeezed.

Haha I wouldn't squeeze your cheeks, that's somewhat belittling you. Although I would want to pick you up and put you in my pocket forevermore. I wouldn't do it 'cause of your height! :D

^There's surely no belittling there, inside the Scottish pocket.

Bah, no worries.
It's a relief to talk about these things, not really the kind of subjects I usually open myself.

I expect a really good kayy hug then, when I come visit.

How tall are you Kay, and Numbernine, I guess I just felt like she was picking at yo brain. And what a beautiful brain I think it is.

She's 5'11"