NumberNineDream

I never was able to look at people in the eye, it just intimidates me. Though I try my best, as I notice how I'm avoiding eye contact, but I was never able to do so. Unless I'm very relaxed with the person, mostly my few friends... but I'm getting a bit better, I think.

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NSW

I truly understand this and can relate to it. I guess this is why the eye thing bothers me so much now. Because at the time of my life when I was shy and found it extremely hard to talk to people, I was crushed when I would finally open up to them, only to have them look away while I was talking.

I suppose the real issue isn't them not making eye contact, but rather making it obvious that they aren't paying attention to the conversation at hand. And I just think eye contact is a good way to make a person feel that you are engaged in the convo. Know whadamean?

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Hi.

NumberNineDream

Yeah, that's why I try to look at their face at least, instead of just looking away. Sometimes I do, and it keeps annoying me the whole day, feeling that I may have bothered that other person.
However, one month ago, one of our teachers was speaking to me and I held eye contact, though it usually freaks me out when a teacher is making eye-contact with me during his lecture. I felt really proud of myself.

I guess what always annoyed me, is the double-standard that school teachers keep regard the whole eye contact thing. Like if they're shouting at you and you're looking in their eyes they'd snap a "Look at the floor when I'm talking to you!". But if we're looking at the floor they'd snap even more with "Look at me when I'm talking to you!".
... so usually when I'd look at them I'd just burst in laughter, cause their deformed angry face always seemed surreal.

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Sansa Stark

Off my medication, I really cannot hold a conversation with a person if I'm looking at them, I have to be doing something with my hands to take in the conversation, otherwise I space the **** out. Everyone thinks I'm being rude but I'm really actually trying to listen!

duga

i really like how honest people are with these things. i really find music-obsessed people have some sort of common thread running through them (albeit one i can't really put my finger on...but it shows in threads like this).

1) I am living with my parents again after 6 years of living on my own.
2) I have a degree in genetics but due to my circumstances am working at a liquor store.
3) I have both a superiority complex and an inferiority complex at the same time and both sides are constantly at war with each other.
4) I am excellent at giving advice that I don't follow.
5) I've only had one serious relationship.
6) I turned into a bonafide pothead while in college (I use the excuse it was because of the stress).
7) Said potheadness turned me into a recluse that only wanted to smoke, listen to music, and watch tv while being quite a bitter person in the outside world.
8) As you might have guessed, this ruined a beautiful 5 year relationship with a girl that I find incredibly hard to get over 2 years after the fact.
9) Though I still enjoy a good toke now and then it in no way consumes me like it did.
10) As depressed as I got over the whole thing, I still feel like I learned a lot about myself and feel like I can control myself before something like that happens again.
11) My first impressions of people have turned out to be right 99% of the time.
12) I can read people's emotions to the t and as a result act as a therapist to all of my friends as well as warning people of someone's intentions (they never listen...and, as I said, I end up being right).
13) I wish they would act as my therapist sometimes.
14) I have seen nearly all of Southeast Asia and a large chunk of Europe.
15) I long to move back to Asia.
16) My favorite meal is stingray, satay, and a nice big glass of Tiger beer.
17) I wish the rest of my life could consist of nothing but traveling and finding new music.
18) I have always wanted to be in a band, but somehow it has never worked out. It is still a life goal of mine, even if it takes until I am middle aged and playing in an old guys cover band.
19) I am amazing at arguing and no matter what the argument and even if I am in the wrong, you will feel like the guilty one. Not that that is my intention, it is just my instinct. My brother hates this.
20) I am probably one of the few people involved in hard science that believes in ghosts.
21) I hate any social event where I can't hear who I am talking to over the music. I go to these events to meet people...and I can't do that if I can't hear them.
22) I am a cat person.
23) I have an intense collection of band t-shirts.
24) I am seriously struggling at more facts now...
25) Thanks for reading this far, I guess...

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Confusion will be my epitaph...

Arya Stark

I need to write a new one.
I was disgustingly depressing when I first joined. xD

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Sansa Stark

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NumberNineDream

I think you'd hate me in real life. I just get all awkward when there's some hugging or a shake... unless I'm drunk. Life would be so much easier if I was able to hug.

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storymilo

This is so right I want to give you a very sincere hug.


Limp handshakes are disgusting, they make me want to barf.

Dieselboy

I'm a horrible hugger just cause I'm sorta taller than alot of people. I never initiate hugs, but when someone tries to hug...for some reason...I always do this weird half-bend half-squat at the same time. I think it must look really stupid.