Official Mental Health Thread

[The Batlord]

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[Cuthbert]

Fluoxetine upped to 60mg from 40mg, anyone experienced any new side effects going to a higher dose?
Cheers.

[WWWP]

Originally Posted by Fluff

Fluoxetine upped to 60mg from 40mg, anyone experienced any new side effects going to a higher dose?
Cheers.

for me any time i increase my mgs there are similar side effects to starting the medication (nausea, dizziness, brain shivers), but much less intense and for a shorter duration.

[Cuthbert]

Cheers WWWP. I can't remember any changes going from 20 to 40 so hopefully will be the same just 60 I think is the highest dose. I've never had brain shivers on these. Really don't want those.

[WWWP]

Good luck. I'm pretty sensitive to most medications anyway, hopefully your chemistry reacts better to it.

edit to add that i'm at 60mgs currently as well and i didn't think i'd notice much of a difference but it's been great.

[Cuthbert]

Thanks, fingers crossed 🤞

[Zhanteimi]

Some Youtuber killed himself (herself?). Apparently it's a "wake up call" about mental health issues.

[The Batlord]

Oh hey I just so ****ing happen to have posted a Philosophy Tube video and he has the best thing I've ever seen on suicide.

[OccultHawk]

Yeah that’s really good

Thanks for posting that

He talks about Mark Fisher, a writer I’ve mentioned on MB a few times. We’re almost exactly the same age and when I read his book I felt like wow he’s really found a way to make a niche for himself in the world that makes me envious. Writing about Joy Division and how ****ty capitalism is but he ended up killing himself not long thereafter.

But yeah that guy covers the subject very well in that video. It’s exhausting though.

This isn’t an original thought or anything but suicide is an ordeal. At my worst, depression wise, suicide is too much effort. I mean of course sticking a revolver in your mouth is t that hard but for me when I’m REALLY depressed it’s not even worth it. It’s when I’m on an uptick coming out of it into activity-land that I think it’s more likely. As much as it might sound like I’m trivializing it. It is an activity sort of like taking a walk or going to the beach. So I’m saying there’s a danger period when you’re pulling out of a deep depression. There’s a window of high likelihood for suicide on the journey back out. At least if your mental patterns are like mine and I doubt I’m unique. Maybe that’s why some people kill thenselves when the anti-depressents kick in.

So to anybody, don’t make any big decisions during the transition phase. Don’t go get crazy drunk or do hard drugs or have cheap sex or kill yourself or anything. Just let yourself get better.

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by OccultHawk

Yeah that’s really good

Thanks for posting that

He talks about Mark Fisher, a writer I’ve mentioned on MB a few times. We’re almost exactly the same age and when I read his book I felt like wow he’s really found a way to make a niche for himself in the world that makes me envious. Writing about Joy Division and how ****ty capitalism is but he ended up killing himself not long thereafter.

But yeah that guy covers the subject very well in that video. It’s exhausting though.

This isn’t an original thought or anything but suicide is an ordeal. At my worst, depression wise, suicide is too much effort. I mean of course sticking a revolver in your mouth is t that hard but for me when I’m REALLY depressed it’s not even worth it. It’s when I’m on an uptick coming out of it into activity-land that I think it’s more likely. As much as it might sound like I’m trivializing it. It is an activity sort of like taking a walk or going to the beach. So I’m saying there’s a danger period when you’re pulling out of a deep depression. There’s a window of high likelihood for suicide on the journey back out. At least if your mental patterns are like mine and I doubt I’m unique. Maybe that’s why some people kill thenselves when the anti-depressents kick in.

So to anybody, don’t make any big decisions during the transition phase. Don’t go get crazy drunk or do hard drugs or have cheap sex or kill yourself or anything. Just let yourself get better.

Yeah this is actually a post I just left at that video cause it felt important to me to post...

I think when I'm done with all this I fantasize about my personal fanfiction character who I imagine in every universe I think is fun. Mortal Kombat for some reason when I was a kid, Evangelion for obvious reasons for someone who doesn't know how to live, superhero **** because that **** is just empowering, whatever, just whatever takes me out of the moment and puts me in some other world where I don't exist and don't matter. I don't even want to be here now but my personal character is here to take me out of the here and now and make it all okay or something.

That's not even a trivial thing. I'm talking about a character who represents me in countless ways who I've been imagining for well over twenty years now and who I escape into basically every day. I don't even know if I'd be alive right now if I didn't have this character to escape into. When I see descriptions of schizotypal and living in your own fantasy world to the detriment of dealing with other people I imagine this because it fits very much. Literally every day I've been alive for over twenty years I've been to some extent in this fantasy world. I don't even want to escape it. This character is my friend and helps me to make sense of the world.

I've literally never even talked about this. To anybody. I'll never even tell you the particulars of this fantasy world because that's my **** and none of your business and vastly intimate to myself.