Official Mental Health Thread

[WWWP]

Originally Posted by OccultHawk

Actually, I think you might be right on that part.

Except our brains lie to us, especially our mentally ill brains.

[OccultHawk]

Originally Posted by WWWP

Except our brains lie to us, especially our mentally ill brains.

That’s such a can of worms, that I opened, that digging deeper if we cared to would probably go best on another thread.

For here though yeah fair enough. Probably should’ve left that one alone.

Sorry Chio

Not saying don’t take your meds

[Raime]

Originally Posted by goldendoodle

I'm now getting to the "Maybe I shouldn't be on medication" phase. This always happens. "It's normal for me to feel like I'm underwater in a dream all the time. Medication prevents me from seeing and feeling the true nature of reality and of myself. If I'm not constantly suffering then I am weak. If I am weak/complacent, if I'm not in a constant hyper-vigilant state, then things unseen could slither in from the dark and harm me." (And other such ptsd-induced nonsense.)
edit: found an inpatient treatment center that accepts my medicaid, they want me to do the inpatient program, about to go meet with them to make sure there's no issues with the medicaid and such. And if there's not I'll be staying there for the next week or so. bye!

Hope everything goes alright, man. I stopped taking my meds and started again recently to induce mania and get **** done. My brain is so ****ing fried, and driving to get my meds I almost got in an accident because of it. I hope you come back soon, we'll miss you, but we're happy you're getting help.

[WWWP]

Not taking your meds as prescribed can make them lose their effectiveness. As well as your brain's ability to respond to them. It's really dangerous.

[Raime]

Originally Posted by WWWP

Not taking your meds as prescribed can make them lose their effectiveness. As well as your brain's ability to respond to them. It's really dangerous.

I know, it's just with everything that's been going on since I've been back has zapped all of my energy away. My room is cluttered, I was sleeping pretty much all day when I wasn't taking care of my animals, or eating, or working. I just tend to do things without really putting much thought into it. If I drink with friends, or get in a manic state I tend to be super positive and productive, and those moments are few and far between. I guess it's like using a hammer smash your hand when you're about to fall asleep or something. Just, it feels so good to be happy, productive, and wanting to talk and be friends with everyone. I haven't felt this good in weeks, and I just wish it would last.

[WWWP]

But surely you see how that is counterprodctive

[Mindy]

Originally Posted by goldendoodle

Is it Vistaril? I didn't like it because it made me horribly groggy for the next 24 hours. (God forbid they just give me klonopin or something that works for me) I hope it works for you though. It should help with sleeping at the very least. It feels like a more intense version of benadryl.

It came today and it is that

[Inkdaub]

Originally Posted by OccultHawk

To other people who have been diagnosed major depression disorder or something similar

This is obviously a personal question but how often do you contemplate suicide?

Do most depressed people think about it everyday?

Like who the **** is really going to mark yes on those questionnaires?

What if you think about it a lot, have a plan, but don’t really think you’re going to go through with it - wtf is up with that?

Everyday. It feels very mundane. Like I am certain that is how I will end up but it isn't of immediate concern.

One of the things that's uncomfortable about it is knowing "normal" people don't do that.

[OccultHawk]

Originally Posted by Inkdaub

Everyday. It feels very mundane. Like I am certain that is how I will end up but it isn't of immediate concern.

One of the things that's uncomfortable about it is knowing "normal" people don't do that.

If you’re planning on it as an out at a certain point I recommend also planning if possible for another path that involves living until a natural death occurs. Speaking from experience, if you’re planning on suicide at a certain point, when that point arises it’s not mundane at all but an incredibly taxing ordeal and, perhaps fortunately in my case, very difficult to follow through. My point is, if you’re not up for it, and you’ve let your life go to **** figuring on it, you’ll just be waiting around to die, miserable, in a pile of ****.

[Inkdaub]

Originally Posted by OccultHawk

If you’re planning on it as an out at a certain point I recommend also planning if possible for another path that involves living until a natural death occurs. Speaking from experience, if you’re planning on suicide at a certain point, when that point arises it’s not mundane at all but an incredibly taxing ordeal and, perhaps fortunately in my case, very difficult to follow through. My point is, if you’re not up for it, and you’ve let your life go to **** figuring on it, you’ll just be waiting around to die, miserable, in a pile of ****.

You're right. I think about this often. I like the way you phrased this post.

I'm not actively planning anything at all. I just feel like it will happen. Splitting hairs I know.

I was mostly answering the question in your post because I think stuff like this is always kept hidden and the mention of the questionnaires caught my eye.