this as well. i mean, i understand the necessity of death and that it is uncontrollable. but the mystery of it all is still something that i really struggle to cope with.

You're about to stop as a lifeform. I'm just going to say that no matter your belief if religion or the afterlife, I imagine every single person who faces death in that last instant is probably terrified beyond what any kind of torture a human can inflict on another human. It's simply the question everyone has ever asked about themselves... will I be gone?

You could die so quickly you wouldn't even be aware of it tbh.

I think, in your last few cohesive moments before you die, heaven and hell truly come into focus in the whole "life flashing before your eyes" kinda way.

If you were basically a good person, who looked out for others, cherished those close to you, and flat out tried to be a nice human being = dying in a happy place.

If you were a prick who thought mostly about yourself, and what you could gain or achieve, regardless of who you stepped on = dying very miserable.

In a way it would almost feel like being robbed of the most truly existential experience anyone could experience. But who would choose to experience it?

What makes you think this? There are guys who have sh*t on so many people in life and didn't care who they hurt, why would they then die miserable?

In a way I am intrigued.

I'm pretty sure that we've talked about this before, but that doesn't so much scare me as it does intrigue me.

EDIT: Didn't even see your post above.

While this kind of goes against the curiosity that I mentioned above, what you describe is all I can think about when someone I know passes. Knowing that they had to experience that affects me more than knowing that I'll never see them again.

In your last few moments, what will be your regrets? I think everyone thinks about regrets when they are close to dying. Water's summed it up perfectly with Dogs.

Mine will be that I never got to play an original 59 Les Paul through a mid 60s Marshall Plexi, with everything dimmed.

"Damn, I wish I had noticed that bus."

You could be so drunk on a night out, walk home and if you are hit by a car you wouldn't be thinking about anything, what happens then? Also as I said, you could die so quickly you wouldn't be aware, or die in your sleep.

It only really works if you know you're gonna die and have time to reflect and even then I don't think it makes sense because I think there are people who genuinely don't care who they've sh*t on.