I've thought about suicide a lot i feel like. Never really because i wanted to kill myself, just because i like the image of the people who have "wronged" me feeling deep remorse and going "oh why didnt we just try to understand him!"

The only reason I've not slit my fucking wrists is because it would apparently upset people and they wouldn't recover from losing me.

I can't grasp why.

I always imagine final destination ****, constantly. I always play out every consequence of something serious in my head.

Because you're an all round amazing person? And I'm pretty sure they value you much more than a virtual mate does.

I'm an empty and hollow piece of shit. Can't see why I'd be wanted around.

We've all been there mate, hell I've convinced myself I'm worthless before. In my unhappier days, thought I'd nothing to live for because I have no job. I have plenty to live for and so do you, friend. :)

I'm probably going to be homeless soon. My friends will leave me once I come out as transsexual. I have no solid future and I'm lonely as shit. I don't see mine as a life worth living. Life is a gift and it was utterly wasted on me.

Get decent friends then, if one of my friends was in the same position as you, yeah I'd be shocked if they came out but I'd support them no matter what, do you know why? Because they're my friend. Why will you become homeless? I've been homeless more times than I can count. Someone will be there for you.

I hate people that say "Committing suicide is taking the easy way out". Bullshit, the only people who say that are so afraid of death themselves that they can't deal with anyone around them dying. I say life is what you make it, it could be real, it could be an illusion, it differs from person to person, and if you're so miserable that you think of suicide non-stop regardless of how you feel, then go for it.

I've struggled with depression throughout my entire life, and it keeps getting worse, regardless of the medicine I take, or who is around me. And let me just say one thing, I'm not going to commit suicide as long as people know who I am. If I'm going out, I want to do so without anyone knowing, or caring. So you guys don't have to worry about me killing myself or anything.

They are good friends but they make fun of anything different. Maybe it is just humour and I'm being paranoid. I don't know.

This will cheer you up.



If he lick from 138-145 doesnt cheer you up nothing will.